Its been a good week, and I'm happy I guess. Missing Paul (he's out of town with the Enemy), but busy with work. Just feeling very very very heavy and really struggling with my eating disorder (which has now been classified as an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified b/c I don't purge anymore). I just want it to be done. To be healthy. And it is more frustrating than I can explain that I just am not.
So for some inspiration (thanks to Demi Lovato for recommending this song- I am a few years older than her base, so I don't know much about her as a star, but I have come to respect her so much for her open struggle with ED and with cutting.)
This is a Christian song, and I'm not really Christian, but I do believe in a strong person relationship with God, and I don't think I ever thought about how that impacted my view of myself. But these lyrics if I really think about them, move me to tears:
I want to hear You say,
Who I am is quite enough.
Just want to be worthy of love