Tuesday, December 27, 2011
So I was hoping to be able to write a post about a wonderful new development in my life in the last few days in the form of a new boyfriend. A non-spanko but who I've known most of my life and now knows the whole story and is wonderfully supportive.
Unfortunately some other news has come up which I need to mention first. Not really sure how to start this...
My mom was just diagnosed with cancer this morning.
The prognosis is really good as far as cancer goes. Its anal cancer (my mom of course was like, "of all the fucking cancers to get! I have to get Farrah Faucet disease!" and we all joke that she is so anal retentive that she gave herself cancer) which is very rare, but from the current assessment of the size of her tumor, has an 80% recovery rate. So... that's good.
The treatment is chemo and radiation- surgery is too invasive. They say that the tumor is pretty small, and that they don't think it has spread yet, but they are going to do more test at the end of the week to check about her lymph nodes and other organs in the area. I'm mostly just worried that the treatment is going to be very rough on her. My mom is the strongest person I have ever known- that most people that know her have ever known- and I know she would win the emotional battle. But physically, my mother is a lot smaller than me. She is taller, but she is very thin, and I have a feeling she isn't going to be up for eating much when they are pumping her full of chemicals, and she really doesn't have any weight on her to lose.
I'm not really sure how to feel right now. I'm not crying or anything, and everyone seems to be ok... as ok as I suppose you can be with the news. I'm not scared either... just kinda numb or shocked or... idk. Maybe it hasn't hit us yet. I am sure that it will in the months to come. But there isn't even a tiny part of me that believes I will lose her. I don't know if that is naive or just a safety mechanism, but.... she is my mom, and I'm not ready to lose her. So I'm not going to. She will win this fight...
So, I just wanted to let you all know, and ask that you keep her in your thoughts and/or prayers, and thank you in advance for all your support.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and everyone will have a joyous and safe new year.
Saturday, December 24, 2011
No real desire to write today. But I want to update something I suppose. I have these AMAZING photos that I've been meaning to share and haven't done so yet and I'm so sorry! Also, Daddy and I started filming again and that is SO exciting, so I will have new stuff up SUPER soon. Actually the one that I finished editing I'm just going to post with no description- like I said not in the mood for writing- but it is HYSTERICAL and so wrong on so many levels- but its Christmas-y so I suppose I need to make it available for sale before x-mas. Its called Naughty Reindeer, Bad Santa... and yes... its as ridiculous as that title makes it sound like its going to be.
Also, some other fun videos, and I filmed a video for Daddy's new site which will be launching (hopefully) soon-ish called Spanking 101 The Book (he wrote this crazy huge and awesome 4 part book on spanking, and the site came from that). I'm going to be a featured model on the site, and I will be exclusive to there and my own things of course. I'm also going to be able to sell my DVD's from his site, so I'm very excited about that. I honestly had forgotten how much fun it can be to film, and I'm glad to be doing it again. Just need to make sure to not get so wrapped up in it and the emotional drama this time :).
SO photos! :) These were taken and edited by the AMAZING and wonderful Adam. He and his gorgeous wife Shay met with me and Paul before the last party, and we had just the most fun time ever! They are actually coming back down for New Years and I am BEYOND excited! :) Shay is going to film for both Paul and myself and I'm so looking forward to it.
I am so thrilled with these photos, so here is a sneak peak- more will be posted soon! I had a bit of drama over the enemy and Daddy and my blog and fetlife, and how "public" our relationship is, and her desire to fuck me over at every turn yadayada, and I got really upset and was writing a far more honest and more blunt and angrier post than I think anyone wants me to write about the situation...
I'm not posting it obviously (that disagreement has passed and as much as I hate Sarah, I'm not looking to hurt my Daddy), but writing it, and just the feelings associated with knowing that people who really shouldn't be here reading, are here and are telling her and others every single thing I write is annoying. I'm proud of my blog and everything I've ever written, and I have always said, and will always say, if you don't like what I have to say, you can go fuck yourself. But she causes drama for Paul/Daddy and that causes drama for me, and I would sometimes rather be drama free than right.
But for the record, Sarah, if you are here, leave. You shouldn't be here. Paul doesn't want you here, I don't want you here, and all you are doing is making yourself unhappy. Paul is my Daddy and lover and I am his babygirl. You don't have to like it, or even think about it. I don't like to think about your existence either. But if you don't want to think about it, then you should stop going places and doing things that you know will remind you and make you upset!
(for those who weren't aware, and apparently there are some people, "the Enemy" is Sarah Gregory. And to answer the questions, yes she is a lesbian, yes its complicated and confusing, no I don't understand it, no Paul won't just leave her. May I also please request that the comments be free of gossip and mean spirited talk. I chose not to use her name normally not to protect her but rather bc I'm not in the mood for that kind of drama. All I try to do is talk about my life, not gossip. And despite my general disdain for her as a person, I don't want to malign her publicly too often, nor do I want to hurt her business.
Also, talk like that just brings out the trolls. Feel free to tell me in an email, but lets keep the boards free of targeted mudslinging.
Ok, wow that felt good to write, and sorry that was not originally going to be the purpose of this post, but I guess I needed to get that out there.
Ok, picture time! lol :)
I hope that everyone is having a wonderful holiday season this year wherever you may be, and let this be a very merry Merry Christmas HUG from me to you. *HUGS* lol
Monday, December 12, 2011
So for some inspiration (thanks to Demi Lovato for recommending this song- I am a few years older than her base, so I don't know much about her as a star, but I have come to respect her so much for her open struggle with ED and with cutting.)
This is a Christian song, and I'm not really Christian, but I do believe in a strong person relationship with God, and I don't think I ever thought about how that impacted my view of myself. But these lyrics if I really think about them, move me to tears:
I want to hear You say,
Who I am is quite enough.
Just want to be worthy of love
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Holy Shit. Its been THREE YEARS!!! How is that even possible?!?!
This vlog is edited and fancy and took forever to make, so please watch :)
Love ya'll! Here's to three more years!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
So, in honor of Thanksgiving, I decided to do a small top 10 list of things I'm thankful for this year. I believe I did something like this either last year or the year before, but who cares! Its a new year, and I have new (and old) things to be grateful for.
What are ya'll most thankful for this year?
10. My Ex's- I'm pretty sure that if I did this list before this was on it then as well. It's more of a statement that I am thankful for my past experiences and relationships, whether they were good or bad, and regardless of their outcome, because they made me who I am today.
9. My country- where despite the fact that were my right to do what we do put to a vote, it would probably lose, it ISN'T put to a vote because that's kinda the whole point; Yay freedom! :) And boo Pakistan and its anti Monkey-crotch policies! (if you don't know what I'm talking about, you should really think about googling it)
8. "Talk-to-Text" on cell phones- Seriously, Androids kick ass, and the Galaxy S II is sooo cool! And now I can text while driving without getting spanked for it! And 4G! I mean seriously, "to the google!" has become my new favorite line.
7. Zyrtec-D- I've always had bad allergies and really really messed up sinuses (I'm just putting off the inevitable sinus surgery really), and have taken this medicine since way back when it was a prescription, but now that I am allergic to my number 2 on this list, it is even more important. I am grateful that I can bury my face in his little neck and kiss kiss kiss all over his little head, and only be in a moderate state of unease lol :)
6. The internet- I mean really. Google, the Vlogbrothers, spanking fanfiction, the list goes on and on. And hey, without it, I wouldn't be, as Francesca likes to call me, "internet famous."
5. This community- There are no words.
4. My health, good fortune, and success
3. My family and friends, including my Nana, Papa and baby sister as well as my daddy Paul.
2. Mozzie- I have never loved anything in this world the way I love my little Mozzie-man. He is my furry baby, and I feel like I finally have some understanding of what parent's feel towards their children. He is the love of my life, and my best friend. Every night in my apartment when I'm by myself and it gets kinda scary and could be very lonely, I just say "hey moz!" and he comes and nuzzles me or plays with me. He is always there to welcome me home, and he is just the most wonderful gift in my life. I can't believe that anyone ever could have not wanted him, and I feel just so blessed and thankful that he is mine.
1. My new-found happiness- This may seem silly to some. I've always had most of these things, so shouldn't I have always been happy? Well, we all know that just because you have good fortune and wonderful opportunities, it doesn't mean that happiness comes easily or at all. I thank god every single day that I wake up happy. Overcoming my depression is something that I can't begin to describe. I feel like I took this huge risk moving back home and starting this business and getting Mozzie, and all these things... I'm so far from where I thought I would be at this moment, and where I was "supposed" to be... but I am so much closer to happiness than I've been in a very very long time. And I am just so thankful to be out of that darkness. To anyone who is still in that place, I promise you, it will get better. Keep fighting.
I love you all, and thank you for the last three years. They have been amazing.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
I missed LOL day!!! Sad face! For those who don't know, in the blog world that means Love Our Lurkers Day. And I DO love my lurkers! I was a lurker for the first decade of being online, and honestly, on my blogs, I still am a lurker, just by sheer laziness!
So even though I missed it, if you're out there, please say hi! I would love to hear from you, and from those of you who are a constant presence as well. :)
In other, oh shit! news, I think I might have missed my three year anniversary! Lol. Maybe not... I think its closer to Thanksgiving... yeah, I started this around thanksgiving break when I was putting off writing a paper...
Can ya'll believe its been three years!?!?! I certainly can't.
Well when that day does officially come there will be some serious nostalgia and I think perhaps a picture retrospective. :)
Love ya'll, and hope you enjoyed the last couple pictures and short little clips.
(FYI for those of you who don't normally watch the clips- those are both under a minute I think, and I'm topless in them so... yeah... I know I know, you love me :) lol)
Ok, got to go buy more paint! Doing the bedroom today! Then I'm going to give ya'll a spankos tour of my apartment with Paul's help! :)
Monday, November 7, 2011
I am so sorry that the first time I post something in a long time it is about something that is not exactly happy. I was actually writing a different post last night, but then I stumbled across these articles, and just... wow. I felt it was my duty to share this with y'all.
Please be warned the video clip that all of this is referring to is VERY disturbing. It is NOT erotic in ANY way, and I was crying 30 seconds in. But I think this is important, and its a discussion that should be had.
These are some of the articles I've been reading, and the initial video and my response.
Original video posted by the now 23 year old daughter of FAMILY COURT Judge William Adams of her as a 16 year old, being brutally beaten and whipped and verbally abused
First article I read detailing the three horrific deaths linked to a TN pastor's book that outlines abusive corporal punishment:
The article with the ridiculous quote saying that "just" welts and bruises on a 16 year old girl isn't abuse
Article detailing how Judge Williams will not face criminal prosecution because of a statute of limitations (a statute that was initially created to protect people because of lack of memory! We don't need anyone's memory for God's sake! There's a fucking video!!! I hope this is pursued and a new precedent set)
I just realized this and it made me so sick inside. If this girl had been 18 or 20 or 25 when this happened (and it probably did until she left the house) he could be prosecuted for assault and battery. If she was a stranger to him, but had "wronged" him in some way we would call it assault. AS WE SHOULD (you have to watch the video- not just clips- I'm so pissed by people who watch the first 30 seconds and say its fine... it goes on and on). But BECAUSE she is a child, we let him beat her! It should be the opposite! She is a child!! It is our job to PROTECT her! It is our duty to protect our children and those who can't protect themselves. He was so much bigger and stronger than her, and she is helpless and beaten, and we can do nothing BECAUSE she was a child, and therefore he has the "right" to beat her.
And then I go and read the comments posted on blogs and articles and the video itself and I'm just even more disturbed. So many people saying she deserved it, or if she had just taken it it would have been fine. Watch the whole thing. I doubt anyone could stomach it.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
So I am house sitting slash babysitting right now and Im having trouble sleeping though Im exhausted. I've been thinking a lot the past couple of nights about my blog and about the scene and videos and that aspect and my life- how it all fits in.
And Im not sure it does.
Nothing has happened. No major crisis or emotional upheaval. I was started back on birth control this month after a month off bc of migraines and I think its making me more emotional and stressed in general. But Im still in what i would consider a very very good place. Also lonely this weekend away from my kitten and my house and my nana and papa and Paul is out of town, but Im not sure that's it either.
Oh, and someone is cyber attacking my business which upset me a lot on Thursday. But again, not really huge.
I think Im just questioning if this makes me happy. I am finding myself so happy in other aspects of my life, and the void this used to fill no longer needs filling, quite often. Whatever that void was.
I love the people here for the most part, though I've been more distant this part year, so its not that anything is making me unhappy.
Its a bit like this is all something I just fell into. I've always been obsessed with spanking and Im certainly an attention whore ;-) but this whole blog thing was a complete accident. I think i sometimes forget that I still had a spanking life before my blog. Certainly it would have been very different and I know i wouldn't have gotten to meet so many of the people that I've met without it. So I am not saying i regret it at all. More like that perhaps it has run its course?
There are times when I wish i could just go back to being that normal spanko girl on SIN trying to find a date, and wondering if i should send a guy a picture. And lets be honest, there are more than a few days when I just want out of the scene in general with all its bull shit and drama. I signed up for spanking. Not that nonsense.
But at the same time i know myself, and I know how much I have loved the attention, the sounding board, the support, and often the pulpit. And do i want to give that up? And for what?
What is it that doesn't feel right?
I just burned a bunch of DVDs and am talking with people about a members site... Am i pushing so much farther bc something seems off and Im trying to fix it? And if so, is farther in the way to go?
Now that Im writing this out on my phone, Im remembering one of the amazing things about this place.
I think its the videos and the business that is making me unhappy. I never wanted that. I just wanted to share and have fun.
Maybe I don't need to cut away completely. Maybe I just need to get back to basics.
Im not really sure what Im feeling. I mean honestly Im not really feeling anything negative or positive about this- it feels very back burner. But something in my gut is telling me to make a change.
And like I tell all of my students- always go with your gut.
The idea of back to basics and no more business and videos is actually making me feel calm... Now the question is can my competitive, attention seeking side live without it? My competitive side btw is not a very healthy part of me.
I could really use feedback on this one y'all. Love you
Monday, September 26, 2011
Hey Again Team!
Almost forgot! (and I'm clearly into alliteration tonight! lol)
I got Daddy to take some still shots of me, because I realized I haven't really done any of these in a long time because I've been able to do so many actual spanking photos by using still shots from videos. But I think there is something nice about what is more classically "me." The solo photo. :)
Most of these poses were inspired by pin-ups, and I have quite a few of each- still trying to decide which ones are the best. I'm really loving the bangs with the pin-up look though- it feels very Barbie Benton, don't you think?
(Heads up, Doc. Full size photos will be coming your way for inspired editing soon, lol :))
So as you might have noticed from my post on it last week, I attended a party this weekend! But not just any party; a two day party! :) AND I had a good time! No Xanax required!
I'm going to be talking lots more about the party coming up in written form (if I tried to vlog it I would undoubtedly mess up people's names and/or call them by their real name which would be bad! lol, so typed will probably be better), but here is a video I recorded on my actual camera in the hotel room as the party was winding down on day two. (You can actually here some spanking going on in the other room at one point I think). The video also features me trying to show you how ridiculously red my bottom was to only a minor fail (caused by Daddy of course! lol)
Friday, September 23, 2011
So I met my dream man. Literally. Liberal intellectual Cowboy spanker, who happens to be 27 and ridiculously good looking and nice and smart.
So what's the catch?
Just that I totally misread him, and he's not interested in pursuing me I don't think. Yep... there were a lot of foot in mouth adventures these last couple days. But, for some reason, I am not completely without hope. Lol, I don't know, perhaps my "winning charm" or something will sway him over to my side of things (my side being that we should totally pursue this vigorously), but even if not, he seems to want to spank me at least, and hey, the cowboy fantasy is like the number one fantasy yet to be fulfilled, and he is a sweet guy and fun to talk to.
So for now, I'll stick to my school girl crush and try to have fewer groan worthy moments of shameless flirting, lol. :)
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Just wanted to make the announcement that I will be attending the bottoms Up back to school party tomorrow night (and possibly Saturday night) here in north Texas. If any of y'all are going to be there let me know! I love meeting readers. :-)
I know what some of you are thinking. Kelley you said you weren't doing any parties anymore. But Paul mentioned it the other day, saying he was sad he didn't have a date bc his girlfriend wasn't going... And well, I was never asked to a dance in school! Lol.
I think that since it is a small event and none of his others will be there and i will get to... Idk assert myself as his... That it will be fun. I do love the exhibitionism of it all... And this time I will know people and it won't be as scary. I do better as the top dog I guess and in a way Im the hostess for this party... So...
Lets hope it goes well but I'll definitely bring my Xanax too! Lol
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
:D :D :D
I finally did it! I created something I'm really proud of all by myself!! Well, with the help of the internet of course. But I created this image, and I have decided that it is now the official logo of Spanking Princess Kelley Productions, which is what I have been calling the video branch of The Confessions of a Spanked Princess (which is of course this site).
Let me know what you think... I'm really happy with it... so be kind!
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Sorry again for the hiatus. I'm really happy in my vanilla life, with my tutoring job and all that, and its taking up a lot of time. I'm also sometimes finding that since I'm so happy, I'm not running here for shelter as much if that makes sense. But I do love it here, so don't worry, I haven't forgotten about you! Just juggling a lot right now.
I just put a deposit down on an apartment!!!! I move in the first week of next month, so that's going to be crazy!! Design ideas are taking up a lot of my extra thoughts these days. I'm also getting a lot of students, which is great, but its hard to balance out the scheduling. Plus I have my kitten, and he is a big responsibility.
Also, I'm trying to get the DVD venture I'm doing here finalized and figured out. Plus filming, plus weighing whether or not to move forward in the scene 9re: create a members site) or to just accept that I'm happy in my life as it is, and not try to rock the boat...
Oh! Speaking of filming... its looking like Paul has arranged for me to get to film with two of my top three all time favorite tops!! I can't technically tell you who or the details yet because its not confirmed, but I'm so excited, and I know ya'll will be happy for me. I'm really nervous though... what if I mess up? Its kinda scary meeting your idols...
Anywho, so yeah, things are busy around here but in a good way for the most part. I have an hour between clients right now, so I was a good girl and I finally went back and replied to some comments! It was probably like 1% of the total I need to do, but I finally started! I've just got to start somewhere. So if you have commented on one of the posts I've done since I got home, I have replied to those comments :). I'm going to start doing them immediately again, bc I really did like doing that- having a more interactive dynamic, and because otherwise I will never do it! lol :)
I also just posted three new clips in the last two days and haven't had a single hit on them... which makes me kinda nervous... but I'm sure its nothing. So here are descriptions and some photos. :)
Oh, and speaking of photos, I'm going to start doing a weekly photo post- anyone have a choice of what day a week I do it on?
Note from Kelley: This first video is going to be part of a new DVD I'm doing that will all be spanking and exposure (which yes, means nudity in some cases). Its something I really love, the spanking with the humiliation factor, but I haven't really wanted to put on the internet. So its going to be exclusively available in DVD. This scene I felt fine about putting online for purchase, but its the only one that will be. :)
The Diaper Position
By popular request, and because I love this kind of uff, here is a diaper position video. :)
There is no known plot (clearly I did something to earn such a humiliating punishment... but you get to decide for yourself what that was), so its just spanking, spanking and more spanking.
I'm completely exposed, and he makes sure I know it, saying how embarrassing it must be. *grin*
Yeah, I'm a fan of this video :) I think you will be too.
Naughty Little Girl
This is an ageplay scene filmed with my Daddy, that I really enjoy, but may not be for everyone. If you do not like scenes where the girl is acting or in the mental ate of a much younger girl, please do not purchase this clip.
For me, this scene was very fun to film. I am naturally inclined towards this type of mental age, and so it comes extremely naturally. My new bangs allowed me to finally do a video in pigtails (which is how I actually wore my hair back in the day!) and I am really happy with how it looks.
The clip arts with me sitting on Daddy's bed, waiting for him to come in. Squirming and worrying and hugging my uffed , I ponder what got me in this situation. I had sassed my teacher at school and she sent a note home to Daddy. He taught me better than to disrespect my elders, and he is not pleased.
I am ill his good little girl though, so the spanking isn't severe. But it is firm. His hand on my nightie, my pink panties, and finally on my bare bottom. Then he gives me 10 firm swats with the wooden hairbrush as a warning in case something like this ever happens again. Lots of snuggles and love conclude this sweet and wholesome clip. :)
Hope you enjoy!
PS. If people like this video I might think about making it into a series. :)
So this plot came about completely by accident. We had just gone to lunch and I had ordered a very good bottle of wine, which since of course we didn't finish the bottle, we took home with us. It also happened to be a beautiful day out, and I wanted to film outside. So the plot was born!
I am the bratty young lover/sweetheart, what have you, of my rather old fashioned man, who happens to be quite the wine-o. When he catches me skipping work to drink one of his best bottles (without a glass even!) he is not pleased, and takes it out on my backside!
This is meant to be humorous, and many of the lines were things I had said over lunch (it was difficult to op myself from rolling my eyes!). But the most fun, is that we are outside the whole time, and we pay no attention to the neighbors, who at one point were also outside talking! I'm pretty sure if you listen closely you can even hear them!
Well technically its our friend's house... hopefully he doesn't care much about his neighbors!! lol *wink*
Monday, September 12, 2011
I really like this vlog actually so I hope you enjoy. Its me ranting about a couple emails I got- requests to do videos- and the entire idea of needing to be "PC" in the fetish community.
We're all told that we should say "to each his own" on everything, but I am making the claim that I can and we should make moral judgements about various "fetishes" and fantasies. It might not be PC (politically correct, for my non native English speakers) of me to do so in the scene, but when have I ever catered and shut my mouth to those with whom I disagree?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
I could apologize again for my absence but that's getting kinda old by now I'm sure. Last day has been all about my new baby kitten, Mozzie. He is the love of my life, but a lot of work! :) I'll be introducing him to you very soon. :)
For now, here are some photos/clip descriptions that went up recently. :) I have been working on some surprises for ya'll that I hope you like for when I return in full force :)
PS. I'm kinda obsessed with both of these photo sets... what do ya'll think?
Thus, the battle of the wills.
It still starts as what it was intended to be, and honestly this video is 97% spanking, 3% plot/talking. Hard and fast with the leather paddle (and in my opinion I think I look really good in this clip!), and then with his hand. Because as I say, "its a more fair fight when its your hand!"
So who wins in the end? You'll have to watch to find out! *wink*
Taking Daddy's credit card without asking and then spending $500 over budget- REALLY bad idea.
Doing the above and then sassing your Daddy= a spanking offense.
This was a really fun role play that is in part based on real life naughtiness of mine of late (the real discipline scene will be posted soon as well) . After Daddy greets me as I walk in carrying yet more shopping bags, he CUTS MY CREDIT CARD IN HALF!!! gasp! The horror! lol
He then pulls me over his knee to try to "teach me the value of a dollar." The scene ends with a VERY hard belting (yeah for surprise tolerance, lol) and I promise to be a very good girl.
This scene is actually also based on a scene in a recent episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians, where Bruce Jenner's young daughters steal his credit card, and he only finds out because the bank called reporting a stolen card! Go watch the brattiness in that scene and I will seem like an angel! *wink*
This is a very firm spanking- and for those who think the more and the harder the better, this scene is for you!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Again, sorry for the delay- stuff is coming this weekend I promise! :) But I did get a chance to film a bit and post a couple new clips for those who are interested.
This scene in many ways mimics my real life (although reversed). I work as a tutor (which is how I had an SAT prep book on hand) and when I worked as a tutor even in high school there were just So many times that I thought all this girl needs is a good spanking! So I figured, lets film it!
I am a young girl who is supposed to be preparing for the SAT before her tutor arrives, but I got distracted on my cell phone, and once again he arrives before I have completed my assignment. He lectures, and gives me the choice of telling my father or he will take care of it himself. Thinking there is no way he spanks harder than my Daddy, I chose him.
Boy was that a mistake!
Little did I know, that my Daddy had spoken to him already, and he was even aware of the location of my dreaded wooden paddle, which he uses very effectively on my naughty bottom when I decide to mouth off.
The scene ends with me on my tummy, red bottom up, finishing my test :)
This scene is sweet and pretty light hearted in nature, but the spanking is definitely real! As I said, one of my favorite that we've ever done. I hope you enjoy!
I have a bad habit of scratching at my arms when I'm feeling especially bad or scared or self loathing, and this is obviously not something that is allowed. I fell prey to this bad habit again about a month ago, and this is my much over-due punishment for that.
It is quick and to the point in the spanking, though he does a good job of making me feel loved and safe and explaining why I am being punished before hand. He uses his hand, a leather paddle, and a very hard (and brand new) wooden paddle from Spanking Paddles by Walt (I'm a fan of theirs) made from Bubinga wood. Needless to say, I learned my lesson!
Afterwards, Daddy holds me in his arms, and I rub my bottom to try to get rid of some of the very painful sting! I'm realizing that being close to my Daddy all the time is amazing, but my bottom is having a hard time recovering from all his attention! *wink*
As is the case with all of my discipline spankings, this is very real, and very personal, and I hope that you enjoy
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I'm so sorry for the ridiculously long hiatus. I moved back home last Wednesday and things have not gotten any less crazy! Its good crazy now though. I'm looking at apartments, got my business up and running, and am really enjoying being in my first ever non-long distance relationship! lol, Its taking a lot of getting used to actually, but I'm loving every minute. :)
I have been meaning to post more, but it just seems to have slipped away from me a bit- maybe the break will have been good for me though :) I think I have some things to say now.
I would really like to say first though thank you to everyone who commented on my last post. Some of them were extremely profound and had a huge impact on me, and not just for that one issue. I've been talking to my parents quite a bit lately about this part of my life, and some of the advice I received has helped me explain things to them.
This coming weekend I will be replying to comments from the last 6 months, lol :) I will be linking to the posts when I do, so you can keep track at home *wink* And a spanking will be given as comeuppance and posted at the end of it as well :)
I love you all so much and I'm so happy to be back! Can't wait to get things going again!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Ok so I really wanted to do a big written post (I have three on the docket) but I just feel like I'm working all the time lately. I'm at work, then I'm home and I'm launching my tutoring company so it'll be up and running when I get home next week, and I've been doing a lot of web work for videos and all that nonsense... but I miss ya'll. I miss my team, and I know that things always go down in the summer (something I never understood lol) but I was hoping to spring up some discussion and get things back to basics a bit!
(a text post?!?! What?? WHERE??? *wink*)
But sadly I don't have the energy tonight- tomorrow maybe. However, I have news that will hopefully result in lots of comments and discussions.
First though, just fyi- before the end of the month, when I get home to Dallas, I am going to sit and spend an entire day just replying to the last 6 months worth of comments and emails. I'm that person that feels like when it piles up I just put it off longer and longer (like cleaning my room) until its a massive ordeal! lol, so I'm going to dig myself out, and then I will start fresh and be a good blogger like I was back in the day when this all first started. I feel like many original "team" members have jumped ship lately, and I'm not sure why, so I'm going to do all I can to bring everyone back.
So the news. I am seriously considering filming with Punished Brats. I have become really good friends lately with their web guy who runs Spanking Resource and Spreview with David Pierson and we've been talking, and Idk, I just think it would be fun. Punished Brats and Shadow Lane are the only studios I would ever consider filming with (other than maybe Amber of Spank Amber) and it would have to be in many ways on my terms, but a lot of the reasons I wouldn't do it before have changed. My parents know (they want me to be "successful") and I have graduated, so I'm really considering it. I'm really curious as to y'alls thoughts though.
My biggest concerns are that first, my body might not be for everyone, and despite the fact that I've been putting myself out there on the internet for 3 years now, trolls, and mean people still upset me. I'm not sure that bringing that many strangers into my "home" here would be good. Second, I feel like some people here are resenting me for "selling out" or whatever. And that is upsetting to me.
For me, the great part about all of this is that it isn't even a source of income I live off- its just for fun and some spending and travel money (though again, my parents knowing everything makes things WAY easier)- and won't ever be. I'm never going to be dependent on this or be a "pro" like some girls. I just really love what I do. That's what has kept me around for so long as it is. The dream would be to be like someone such as Erica Scott who comes and goes in the scene and has had a very long career, but really does whatever the fuck she wants to do, and has a life outside all of this as well.
Nothing is even remotely finalized. My friend at PB (I don't know his scene name lol, sorry!) still needs to talk to David about it, and I would need to talk to him and my man and everything, and just give it more thought, but I really want feedback from ya'll.
Plus I might go on a comment related strike soon, lol, so I vote you should discuss. Should I do it? Would you watch?
PS. I was told by a friend that my comment function wasn't working for them :( If that's the case for anyone else please send me an email so I can try to get it fixed! Love ya'll. HUGS
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Hey team, :)
So its up! After discussing the amazingness that was getting to spank Natasha yesterday in my vlog I remembered that I hadn't actually posted the clip yet. But I have now, and its up! :) Bc Natasha was really hesitant to let me post it at all (it was originally filmed just for my pleasure, lol) there won't get to be any preview clips from this one- sorry guys :(- but I hope that those of you who get a chance to check it out enjoy, and I'd love your feedback on my technique! *winks*
Friday, August 5, 2011
Overdue, but its here!
Highlights for those who don't want to watch it all, but don't want to miss out (though I think this one is really good and you should watch the whole thing.)
1:30- about my bisexuality
2:30- gushing over Natasha
2:50- lessons learned (aka holy crap my hand hurts!)
3:55- apparently I'm a great top
5:20-10:00 what I loved about spanking her
6:15- me deciding I should do some of the video in sunglasses
9:00- me sucking as a sadist
10:00- me demoing on my own ass where the "secret sweet spot" is
11:45-end- I'm hooked, and the possible future
LOVE Y'ALL. Please comment! This one was done specifically w/ ya'll in mind :)
Ok, so I'm calling this my masterpiece, lol. I had the idea to put this together awhile ago and finally got around to it. Its meant to be just for fun- clearly none of these were serious or real discipline spankings (I do those too, but I'm usually pretty contrite in those), they're either role plays or just us having a good time and goofing off.
I apologize for the crappy video quality in some of it, but hey, that's how its been, lol. I just decided to start filming for fun back a few months ago- I'm not a pro model or anything- and thus the quality has evolved. One of these clips (which I haven't put up anywhere else before) was literally a spur of the moment, point and shoot camera balanced on toast, behind the scenes kinda moment. Then there are also some of my nice quality ones that I've been doing more recently.
As I said, not meant to be serious. I'm just having a good time, and thought I'd share it with ya'll and have nice fun spanking times for everyone :).
If you're interested, the full clips for all of these are either available here, on my blog or on my clips4sale site.
Clips featured (in order of first appearance):
Birthday Spanking Compilation (c4s)
Back from College Syndrome (c4s and preview here)
I May be Wearing Pearls But I'm Not June Cleaver (c4s)
Spanking Fun (c4s)
Naughty Wife (c4s and preview here)
Consequences of Teasing (here)
Wet Bottom Spanking (here)
A New Perspective (c4s)
A Letter to My Fans (available exclusively on my blog)
Behind the scenes (exclusive to this clip)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
Love y'all! We'll get back to business as usual (meaning sporadic and crazy but sometimes spanking focused at least lol) soon I promise. Love to hear from everyone.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Oh, Dr. Spencer Reid, let me count the ways I love you. :) Lol, thank you for making this whole thing seem so much better!
(I finally finished all 6 seasons of Criminal Minds, btw, and now I'm like, noooo I have no more Morgan, or Rossi or Reid or Hotch til September!!!) lol
Thank you for all the support everyone- I promise an update soon about what has been happening, and also a less "major depressive episode" related post soon.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
I'm still having a REALLY rough time (though a text message Daddy just sent made it a lot better: "No matter what's going on, you can expect a blistering for hurting yourself and calling yourself bad." God I needed to hear that- I've been so scared about losing him along with the depression) but Ivan made this to help me smile, and I just wanted to share it with ya'll, and say thank you for all of the concerned messages.
I was (and honestly still am) in a pretty bad place, but I would never hurt myself in any permanent way, I promise. And all the support and the messages that I have received on here have meant more to me than I can say.
So all I will say is:
Sunday, July 24, 2011
PS. Lots of stuff going on in my life, lots of possible changes happening (I just told my mom the truth about the site- that I do videos- her basic response- they want me to be happy, and if I'm going to do something I damn well better be successful at it! lol, thus the business side of me). I'll tell y'all all about it soon.
PSS. I'm jonesing for comments... I've put out lots of videos this past week... need some loveee *wink* I know I know, I'm needy. Apparently being in an online relationship of any sort with me is just like really dating me! lol, I'm needy and crave love and attention all the time!
But you know you love me *grins*
What happens when a beautiful young brat marries a much older and old fashioned man? Spanking that's what.
The full length version of this can be found (along with all my other clips) at my clips for sale site: http://www.clips4sale.com/store/44821
Feel encouraged to check them out!
Hope you enjoy!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Originally I filmed this with an intro into it explaining what it was for, but then I figured, y'all would probably know.
I suck at replying to comments, and I suck at replying to emails. People are so good to me, and I frequently let ya'll down. Hell, I'm bad at keeping in touch with my absolute best friends.
Anddd when I asked for video ideas, I got more than a couple only half joking requests saying I deserved to be spanked for not replying to emails.
So here you go. For free. For everyone. Not on clips4sale. Its kinda slow (though still hard! Daddy's hand is about a soft as a mahogany paddle) in the beginning (Paul and I had just had an emotional discussion- like actual words- and I had been crying, so I think he was trying to gauge me emotionally, figuring he wouldn't need to go as hard given my headspace) but I brat my way to get it even harder and faster on my bare bottom at the end.
And it finishes with me talking directly to ya'll. :)
I was thinking about putting this on FL or spankingtube, but really, I'm remembering, that's not who I am, and that's especially not what this was for. This is for MY "team." You guys have made this a wonderful almost three years, and I am very grateful to you, and I'm going to try my best in the future to show you that appreciation.
(oh, and once again, this one is available in HD- yay new camera!)
WHOOPS almost forgot I'm supposed to tell you:
"I'm so sorry for not responding to everyone's comments and emails. They are so sweet, and every time I read one they make me so happy. It was inconsiderate and impolite for me to not at least say thank you. As a result, I got my bare bottom spanked, HARD *tiny pout*, and I was scolded, and I promise I will do better in the future."
So as most of you could tell from my post last night, yesterday was not a good day. At all. Today has been better, but mostly because I told my boss I needed a mental health day and she understood, took another xanax the moment I woke up, and slept until 6:30 tonight, lol. So basically the day was good bc I skipped it! lol :)
But, as always, the bright spots in my day come from ya'll. I, for a brief moment, had the number one clip on clips4sale, and currently hold the number 2, 4,5 and 6 positions and my studio is number 4 overall :). That's mostly just a pride thing, and I'm finding that pride, in reality, doesn't feel all that good in that form. It feels good when I feel proud of myself, and external validation is not required. :)
People's comments and emails have been sweet for the most part (though I did get a couple telling me to shut up bitch and stop whining, sigh).
But the person that I'm wanting to highlight and tell you allll about, is Doctor Ivan. He has been an off and on reader of my blog for a while (a friend pointed it out to him like, hey hot chick alert), and oddly enough, is not a spanko. He does the graphics for the Howard Stern Show (something I watched on E! from when I was 10-14 with my older brother [how he didn't know I was bi I will never know!]) as well as many other adult and regular things. And he's fantastic.
Back when I was in Italy, he sent me an email with a couple photos that he had doctored and altered and made amazing, and I just thought they were wonderful. Of course, I was in Italy at the time, and also suck at getting back to people in general, lol, so it took me months to even just say thank you (something that will be addressed in a video today- the surprise i was telling you all about). But I googled him the other day I started following him on Twitter, and then yesterday he made me a twitter background and OMFG its AMAZING!!!! Everytime I look at it I just... I feel happy and beautiful, and those aren't always easy things to come by in my life.
So now we've started doing business, and he made me some wonderful banners that I'd been needing for various things. Well he made me one, and then I got fussy and asked for changes, lol. So I just want to share all the wonderful work he has done, and also ask you all to vote on your favorite banner. :)
To see the twitter background- which is my FAVORITE of the things just click here. I promise, you don't have to join to see it. And it scrolls.... :) http://twitter.com/#!/PrincessKelleyM
(PS. in case you hadn't noticed yet, my twitter feed is on the right hand side, down about half way, so you can read my tweets there if you don't want to follow me :))
Some of you may remember this first one. Its a picture I took on the Amalfi coast of myself (yeah for self photo taking skills!) and he just made it so much better by adjusting the lighting and getting rid of the telephone line, swoon! loveeee this image. God I miss Italy
And here are the buttons and banners he made me :)
(I think my favorite banner is the second one- you?)
If you want to contact him about hiring him for work, you can do so here.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
God damn hormones.
Somedays, I hate being a woman.
It has been a rough day- just really emotional for some reason, and just feeling... off... and then my friend found an abandoned cat that has cancer and I just started crying because I don't the kitty to die, but I don't want it to suffer, and I want it to know it was loved, and it was just too much... just feeling really.. "little." Its a headspace I go to, where I really feel like I'm 8. That's about how strong I'm feeling today.
"I went to bed on top of the world, today the world's on top of me.
Everybody got opinions, they share, they ain't been in my position, they don't care
But it breaks my heart when I hear what they, have to say about me."
(He still loves me, from Fighting Temptations)
So then I went and watched last night's so you think you can dance, and it was a wonderful escape. But then I came back, and checked all my emails and I checked the sites that I've been doing stuff on lately, and I went to spankingtube, where I went ahead and posted that preview clip. And its been viewed like 1000 times, but it has a rating of 3, and there are all these just thousands of other clips, some good some bad, mostly just.. eh... and I mean my first video from 2 years ago is 5 stars and 100k views... and I know this clip was only rated by like 4 people so far, so maybe its just someone who doesn't like me or something went and rated it, but it just hurts you know? Its like I put something out there, so I understand that people can have an opinion. But its something that not only am I extremely proud of, but something that I just, I thought people would enjoy....
...I just want to be back home. I just want to be in my Daddy's arms. I don't want to be in this stupid apartment by myself. And I don't want to be working this job, no matter how good it will look on my resume anymore. I don't care about what I'm doing, and it just sucks the life from me. I just want to cry.... I just need a spanking... I need to get it out... and I need Daddy to pick me up and hold me so the world will melt away... the world needs to melt away....
just let it go away... just for a little bit.... just til I'm ok...
Sorry this isn't going to be more in depth of a post for the moment. I'll come back tomorrow and fill it out as promised (btw, I definitely got my days of the week confused yesterday! lol whoops!).
I've been typing all day at work, and then I worked pretty hard video editing and photo editing when I got home, so I'm just not up to writing out a whole long thing.
I'm just really in love with the stuff that I filmed with Natasha, and I really hope that people love it as much as I do, and as much as I think they will. I feel like it could really take off, and idk,
I just--- I think it is a beautiful expression of the human form and of the female body in all manners. I show my breasts in the video and I chose to leave all those shots in because I feel so proud of my body and of the manner in which our sexuality is put forth and displayed. A woman's sensuality is not something to be feared, but rather something to be cherished and the honesty of female sexuality is a beautiful thing.
Here is the cover shot I made for the video- if clips4sale will stop freaking out about how large the file is and let it freaking upload! UGH!!!
Ok, I need to go to bed. Its really late, and my boss scolded me (not in the sexy way) for being late all the time today so I really need to show her that I am dedicated to the job I'm doing there (even if I'm not, lol). Plus I'm feeling super artsy (just watched some really intense contemporary dance online- swoon, talk about the use of the human body!) and sometimes that can go to very dark places... or it can produce nice well written paragraphs like the one before :) lol.
Hopefully the clip will be loaded by morning if not sooner, and you can all share in the sensual beauty with me. :)
Love and Hugs
PS. I also love the m/f stuff I filmed that is up now, so take a look at that if you haven't had a chance :). http://www.clips4sale.com/44821
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
So this weekend was amazing. It got kinda dramatic at parts, but overall it was a really good time. I got to reconnect with my Daddy, which I haven't gotten to do in a while, and I'm feeling really good about our relationship (that has no definitions thank you very much, and I love, despite many people's comments here against it).
But something that I didn't count on, came in the form of a someone. Natasha Miller. She moved in with Paul about a month ago- needing to get away from her former home for personal reasons- and I wasn't sure that I was going to like her. Turns out, she totally kicks ass :)
Some of you may recognize her (or her name- she is the younger and much hotter and sweeter sister of the quite well known Allison Miller (who in my opinion looks like someone who I want to feed a sandwich and then give a bath to wash her makeup off not spank- just imho- just fyi, this comment is meant as like an overbearing mother not a catty girl, lol) from her work a few years back as a submissive in some spanking videos. But Natasha is not a bottom (so if you see her at a party, don't ask to spank her! lol) except with her romantic partners for erotic moments. She is, however, an exceptionally talented top, and we had some fun!
At first, my thought was, this girl is SO not my type. I really dislike tattoos, and piercings aren't exactly my thing. And I have an intense desire to make her go back to her NATURAL red hair and not her current tresses of fire. However, in reality, she is very much like the first girl I played with back in April (you might remember my "I just had sex" post)- busty, and a natural redhead. Em- the girl I played with- was shy and sweet, wore sweaters and pearls and was overall a good girl. Natasha wears dresses that I think are shirts, and is one of the most bad ass chicks I've ever met.
But both of them have a sensuality about them that just cannot be ignored.
And she was quite the fan of me as well :). So much so that she actually let me spank her! As I said, she does enjoy it quite a bit, but its only something she does with people she really has a connection with and her primary interest lies in topping- which she did plenty of! We actually have about an hour of footage of her just spanking me and caressing me... its really hot stuff. And about half an hour of me spanking her- my first time ever giving a spanking (omfg am I completely hooked btw- this was something that I used to be EXTREMELY interested in, and I suppose had given up hope on- it should have been included on my bucket list) and what a spankee to have! I mean look at that ass! Its just so... yummy looking! *panting a bit*
Andddd she just told me that she's ok with my posting the clips to my store! At first she just wanted to post the top ones, bc as she says, she's sick of people harassing her to sub, but she knows how hot the videos are, and she trusts my viewers to be kind to her :). That, and I have so much footage of the two of us that in addition to posting the various clips, I'm also going to be compiling all of them together for a DVD which I will be selling at a rate that is lower than what all the clips together will be (due to the nature of clips4sale and how they share profits of DVDs vs clips).
Basically life is so good right now, and you guys should be getting SOO excited. Because...
COMING UP (mark your calendars):
Tuesday Tease- possibly the best Tuesday tease ever will be coming tomorrow. Just a short little snippit from one of the more sensual spankings Natasha gave me over the weekend. (oh yeah, I'm going to be showing a little bit of breast in the for sale clips, and we make out in them... kinda a lot). My first ever F/F clip! I know, I'm quite the tease!
Wednesday- info on and photos from all the OTHER amazing clips and videos we recorded (three of which are up and available right now!)
Thursday- vlog on what it was like to give my first spanking :)
Friday- The ULTIMATE "letter" to my fans will be posted for free to the blog through my Youtube account. A 4 minute discipline spanking for ya'll, for being so naughty about replying to comments and emails. :) Yeah, I know you love me *wink*
So I hope you enjoy the videos that are up and oogling my gorgeous and sexy girl aka "Red." And hope to hear from ya'll!
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
So I'm headed back to the Big D this weekend to spend time with my main squeeze and I am going to get to do some filming as well, but I would love some suggestions/input!
Its going to be a sadly pretty quick weekend, and I think filming wise it'll just be the two of us (perhaps Johnny Ravage and/or Mike will be joining us as well) so I'm looking for simple ideas. Honestly I can't think of reasons to be in trouble! lol.
My Daddy/daughter clips seems to do well, and those are really easy and fun to film for us- they are our natural dynamic. Though he also really enjoys, I think, doing the wife scenes- which can be really funny. I get quite the kick out of the spontaneous or just for fun ones, but those don't always seem to be as popular.
Then of course there is real discipline, which will be happening this weekend, so that's a guarantee.
So I suppose my main question for people is what is your favorite type of scene, and also I would love ideas for reasons to be in trouble! Little scenarios, or creative ideas. I have a list running, and I could really use some creative input! All ideas are welcome! As are just plain old requests lol (ie, a leather paddle over pillows, a spoon otk, a good girl spanking...)
The photos here btw, are just here to entice people to read the post and comment, lol. :)
PS. According to Youtube, only 22 people so far have watched my most recent video, which I find very surprising. I thought it was pretty good, and the topic was sensational enough. Plus I did it with the option of HD. Are people just not interested anymore, or has it just been a busy week? :(
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
So sorry for the extended absence. I was in Aspen, CO for the long weekend (plus a few extra days) with my family (mom, dad, brother, brother's gf- who I adore! hope he doesn't screw this one up! lol) doing lots of outdoorsy things (golf, horseback riding, fly fishing, ect) and I just wasn't on my computer much. Then I got back here and had to go back to the real world which kinda sucked, lol. So like I said, I'm so sorry for the absence, but everything is a-ok. I promise :) And I'll be again from now on.
AND to apologize for my absence (and bc I needed to just bite the bullet and do it) I have created a twitter account for this blog and my scene life. It makes me exceptionally worried, but we'll see how it goes. If you are in any way affiliated with my vanilla twitter account (which I think only applies to like two of you maybe) you can NOT be associated with this account!!!!!!!!!! Ok, lol. Now that I've said that-
That is my handle :)
PrincessKelley was taken- bitch. SpankedPrincess was taken!!! Double bitch!!! (lol, yes, I believe that I am THE spanked princess, and when people use that title, it really pisses me off). and PrincessKelleyMay was too long.
I might change it to tCoaSP or something like that- probably not- idk. What do ya'll think?
So feel free to follow me. I'm not sure how I'm going to play this. Its probably going to end up being like 20 one day and then nothing for a week, lol. I mean for those of you on twitter (I just got my vanilla account a few months ago and only use it to stalk celebrities) how often do you tweet? Should I post things like "I'm making my favorite italian meal for lunch right now" (true fact btw) or only spanking related things?
Oh also note: there will be no graphic twit pics for the moment. I just don't want to get caught up in that. I trust blogger way more than twitter. Especially since I also have a vanilla account. Pictures will stay here.
hmm... I wonder if there is a way to embed my twitter feed onto here... I'll figure it out :)
anywho, sorry for rambling, just thought I'd let you know!
Love ya'll and its good to be back!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
A text answer to one of the questions (with photos of course) will be coming tomorrow, but since I'm not taking the lazy way out and just talking lol, I'm taking the lazy way out and procrastinating. :)
But when I do that, you get photos! lol.
I've kinda fallen in love with this picture. Its from a clip I just released that I actually filmed back in May when Paul came up during finals to visit me...
I hadn't edited it together since right after that was finals and then graduation, and I honestly kinda forgot about it. That, and two of the parts that I filmed were sideways, lol. Turning a regular camera vertically during video mode doesn't have good end results! (Oh that reminds me! I just got myself a brand spanking new camera! Its a Sony DSC-HX9V. One of those compact megazooms. I'm really excited about it! But I'm not the best with cameras...any hints?) Anywho, so I finally got the clips flipped and put it all together, and the end result was pretty cool. I get a belt whipping in it, which I know some people really love, and I hadn't filmed that before. I don't generally love belts (I love straps) but I actually really love watching that part of the clip.
This photo comes from at the end when I'm getting up and pulling my pants back up- just a great moment at just the right angle I feel... what do ya'll think? :)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
7. Can you identify a spanko on sight? Do you ever think that others (non-readers, that is) can recognize your secret?
UPDATE!!! OMFG!!!!! Bonnie found the clip in like 2 seconds for me!!! And its even better than I remember! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwUJ6okXoZE