Ok so I really wanted to do a big written post (I have three on the docket) but I just feel like I'm working all the time lately. I'm at work, then I'm home and I'm launching my tutoring company so it'll be up and running when I get home next week, and I've been doing a lot of web work for videos and all that nonsense... but I miss ya'll. I miss my team, and I know that things always go down in the summer (something I never understood lol) but I was hoping to spring up some discussion and get things back to basics a bit!
(a text post?!?! What?? WHERE??? *wink*)
But sadly I don't have the energy tonight- tomorrow maybe. However, I have news that will hopefully result in lots of comments and discussions.
First though, just fyi- before the end of the month, when I get home to Dallas, I am going to sit and spend an entire day just replying to the last 6 months worth of comments and emails. I'm that person that feels like when it piles up I just put it off longer and longer (like cleaning my room) until its a massive ordeal! lol, so I'm going to dig myself out, and then I will start fresh and be a good blogger like I was back in the day when this all first started. I feel like many original "team" members have jumped ship lately, and I'm not sure why, so I'm going to do all I can to bring everyone back.
So the news. I am seriously considering filming with Punished Brats. I have become really good friends lately with their web guy who runs Spanking Resource and Spreview with David Pierson and we've been talking, and Idk, I just think it would be fun. Punished Brats and Shadow Lane are the only studios I would ever consider filming with (other than maybe Amber of Spank Amber) and it would have to be in many ways on my terms, but a lot of the reasons I wouldn't do it before have changed. My parents know (they want me to be "successful") and I have graduated, so I'm really considering it. I'm really curious as to y'alls thoughts though.
My biggest concerns are that first, my body might not be for everyone, and despite the fact that I've been putting myself out there on the internet for 3 years now, trolls, and mean people still upset me. I'm not sure that bringing that many strangers into my "home" here would be good. Second, I feel like some people here are resenting me for "selling out" or whatever. And that is upsetting to me.
For me, the great part about all of this is that it isn't even a source of income I live off- its just for fun and some spending and travel money (though again, my parents knowing everything makes things WAY easier)- and won't ever be. I'm never going to be dependent on this or be a "pro" like some girls. I just really love what I do. That's what has kept me around for so long as it is. The dream would be to be like someone such as Erica Scott who comes and goes in the scene and has had a very long career, but really does whatever the fuck she wants to do, and has a life outside all of this as well.
Nothing is even remotely finalized. My friend at PB (I don't know his scene name lol, sorry!) still needs to talk to David about it, and I would need to talk to him and my man and everything, and just give it more thought, but I really want feedback from ya'll.
Plus I might go on a comment related strike soon, lol, so I vote you should discuss. Should I do it? Would you watch?
PS. I was told by a friend that my comment function wasn't working for them :( If that's the case for anyone else please send me an email so I can try to get it fixed! Love ya'll. HUGS