Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Years Eve

Hey Team,

So I was going to do- and will do tomorrow- a "year in review" post (probably in audio form with visual aides :) ). However, tonight I am having a party- my first official party as the hostess actually. I have always lived in dorm rooms at school and thus have never hosted a party. Well I hosted a party my freshman year at someone else's house....that ended poorly (re: over a toilet).

So anyway, lol. I'm very excited and have spent all day putting it together, so I haven't had time to do that. But I am currently getting ready, and I have put on my silver dress. This is a dress I bought 3 years ago, and have worn it seems every New Year's Eve since then.

2 years ago we were on a cruise, and I was very very sick. There are no photos that I can find of me by myself in that dress but the next day I took this photo in another pretty dress. Then last year I wore the silver dress to a party, and I felt really pretty (and happy re: tipsy) so I took photos when I got home.

This unfortunately leads me to a not so happy and fun position right now. I am wearing the exact same outfit as I did last year- same necklace even. And it fits, but I can clearly see that I am heavier in it. I mean it is clear that I have gained weight each year, but...well wearing something that used to look a certain way and now doesn't is always a bit distressing.

None the less, I am excited to ring in the new year- and I put on fun panties just for the occasion ;) And I still love my sparkly dress :). And when I think about what got me this bit of extra flesh I remember my house-parents in Italy and their amazing food and love and affection, and the joy that I had while I was there, and how through working hard to lose the weight now I have actually begun to address the eating issues I've had all my life, and it all seems pretty much worth it. :)

Fun little diddy of me through the years. Actually its me through blogging. I started this blog 2 months before the first picture was taken in 2008.

xoxo
Princess Kelley






Thursday, December 30, 2010

Belated Christmas Gift




They are from 2 Christmas's ago, but I thought you might like them :)

Merry Belated Christmas

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Magic Wands at the Doctor

Very short little audio about the most ridiculous use of THE "magic wand" ever.
Discussion of needles and some medical stuff (though I try not to get too graphic) but if that makes you terrified, don't listen. :)

Ok, going back to bed now.

Love ya'll

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Late night Musings


Hey Team,
So quick text. Here is another long audio recording. Kinda personal in nature- so if all you're here for is the sex stuff, it might not be your cup of tea.


But for those people, here is a little treat. Its old I know, but I thought all these musings in the shower, so it felt appropriate.

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Test Test 1, 2, 3

This is a test of the podcast format. Hope it works! *crosses fingers*

In this audio file I discuss the testing, web stuff in general, driving in the rain, my panties and workout attire, and then go into cowboys and ideal spankers, and dichotomous relationships in spanking.

Hope it works, and hope you enjoy!

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Update: fail :( I don't like the enclosure method. Now I think I might just try direct links again, but this time they are on a safe- spam free for sure website and are in WAV format :)


Happy Dance!!!

So its an old photo, but it conveys well my current emotion :)
HAPPY!!!!

Thank you thank you thank you for everyone who emailed and/or commented. When I got home from hanging out with Michael and saw that I had 12 unread emails I just...well did my happy dance. :D

Will respond to questions in the comments section. :)

Will post something new tomorrow :)

IMPORTANT UPDATE:
A reader brought it to my attention that the second link was the same file as the first- this is not how it was supposed to be.
this should be the proper file. It is much longer, and I talk about different things. If you didn't get two different audio files when you tried to listen, try this link. I will change the other one as well. thanks for letting me know. HUGS (the first file should say 07 and the second should be 06.)

Love you!!!
xoxo
Princess Kelley

PS. If anyone, and literally I mean just one person, comments with how vlogbrothers relates to happy dances, I will post a video of me doing my happy dance for ya'll :).

Monday, December 27, 2010

Needy


Where is everyoneeeeeeeeeee?????

*sniff sniff* *little sob*

Ok, so I know that its only like two days after Christmas and everyone is busy, and I know that I haven't been writing in forever so there's no real reason for anyone to check my blog anymore, and I know that its not like what I wrote was a masterpiece, and I know that the audio files were big, and hosted on some sketchy server, and I know that I've been a naughty blogger lately and not responded to any comments (even though I read and love them all).

So in my head I know all of these things and each one would explain why I have no comments for my last two posts, but just because I know something, doesn't mean I'm not still needy and sad and feeling neglecteddddddd. :((

I kept checking my email all day after I posted for comments, and when I didn't get any I was sure I would get some when I woke up this morning, and then I was sad all morning, and I even checked all my spam folders and came here. And well, I know its naughty of me to be needy and pouting, and feeling unloved, especially when ya'll are always so good to me, and I've been so naughty this year, but I do! *stomp!*

So there. hmph!

Love meeeeee!

xoxo
Princess Kelley

PS. I think I'm going to bite the bullet and post the audio files on YouTube b/c I'm sad that no one will look at them this way, and I thought it was fun. But if ya'll hate the entire concept, please let me know, and I just won't worry about it.


Sunday, December 26, 2010

Cars and HoH's

Hey team,

So I am apparently going for the gold on this new plan of mine :). Lol, I recorded something that ended up being significantly longer than anticipated on my drive home.

Did I mention I can talk?

Lol, for those of you who have always wanted to know what I sound like...here you go. For those of you who would like to keep your own fantasy... don't listen? lol

In these I talk about cars, driving, speeding tickets, spanking, Keith Jones, domestic discipline, head of households, cowboys, spanking, spanking, and Santa :)

Wish me luck on attaching these! :)

Part One- that was actually recorded after the fact bc I deleted it while making an illegal U turn :)
on Driving, Cars, Speeding Tickets, and Spanking :)

XXXX

So this is taking FOREVER to process...so I'm going to try something a little different....

For the Part one. Its not going to spam your computer I promise. I tried it beforehand. Just follow the correct prompts, and don't click on ads.
If anyone has any other ideas, please let me know :) I'm not comfortable putting them on youtube- and their just audio, not video anyway, so hopefully I'll get this down.


Part Two- Keith Jones, Spanking videos, masturbation, HoH, and DD, Cowboys and Santa



Hope you like it :). And feedback on both the process and content (I ask a question that requires responses in Part 1!) is very very appreciated :)

Love ya'll!

xoxo
Princess Kelley


nerd fighters!

Hey team,
So Im both writing this from my phone and also while doing cardio so please excuse any and all horrible typos. Thanks :-)

so if you don't understand the meaning of the subject of this post you immediately need to Google vlog brothers on YouTube and watch as many of their videos as humanly possible. I would suggest 50 jokes in 4 minutes and their French revolution videos as well as adult female song.

Oh and just dftba!

So all of that is to explain an idea i had recently.

The vlog brothers are two brothers who im 2007 decided to stop all textual communication and instead decided to communicate through videos on YouTube. This immediately became amazing. Those of us who follow them are called nerd fighters and our goal is to eliminate world suck.
Just accept this.
Anywho so this for any of you who thought this, is not going to result im me suddenly converting to video blog ing. Not that bold yet. But i did have an idea.

So if you haven't noticed, i have kinda been doing a shitty job of updating. That's not to say though that i don't think about the blog or just things i think and them immediately wish i could share all the Damn time!

So these guys dedication has really made me look at mine. What if during the day, whenever i thought of something to tell you i just wrote it down or recorded it on my phone? And at the end of the day i just posted this list of sorts. That would mean you would get a lot of random bullet points some of which might not make any sense at all, but then i could burn use these lists to help me remember what i wanted to say im my longer posts.

Thoughts?

Well im going to give it a bit of a try on my way home with some audio- i really am really good at talking lol! ;-)

love y'all
Dftba
Xoxo
Princess Kelley


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Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

Hey team!

Im so sorry that i have been so absent as of late. As i an sure you can imagine, finals were a bit crazy. I can't even believe the semester is over still! In the end i actually had my best semester gpa wise ever.

I an actually excited to write about a bunch of stuff that has been happening. Right now im writing this on my phone while watching the game with my family.

I just want to say merry Christmas to all of you and happy holidays in general. I an sure i will be writing before the new year but i want to say ahead of time how wonderful you all have been as always this year, even while i have not been the best of friends or blogger this year.

Merry Christmas everyone. I promise to post again tomorrow.

Love
Xoxo

Princess Kelley


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Monday, November 29, 2010

Oh NOOOO!!! Missed Blog Birthday and Boucher

I MISSED MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Well my blog's birthday anyway. For some reason I had it in my
head that our second Birthday was on the 28th, but it turns out it was on the 25th!!! Nooooooooo
oo!!!!!

Oh well. That was Thanksgiving this year, so at least it was a well celebrated day! :D

In other news :) I'm working on my research topic for one of my art history seminars and it turned very fun :). I got to chose the topic and picked the sprawled out female nude. Sweet!

So, as part of my presentation tomorrow, there is definitely a Playboy picture thrown in. It is meant to illustrate how one would have felt looking at images such as the Venus of Urbino at the time, and not as we do today. We have become desensitized to images such as these, which are both "artistic" in nature, and thus deny some of the punch of the nudity, in part due to their iconic nature. So I just picked a random Centerfold and hopefully she will convey the emotion I am trying to describe. Oh! And in her pictorial she just happens to be an artist! ;)

Also, Boucher's little Louise O'Murphy! (see above)
I don't care that she was 15 when she modeled for him and then became the favorite of the King and his mistress, she is just adorable! And who doesn't love this pose? I'm reading a (make that 10) book right now, this one in particular discussing this pose and how it is unique in art history and particularly degrading, and I just keep thinking, really? I think this looks like fun! :)


xoxo
Princess Kelley

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Bored

Hey Team,

So whoever decided to make a huge fuss about security today was an asshole. 
And wrong. 

(random note of person thought: anyone else think that the terrorists are just picking horrible places to hide their really poorly made weapons in order to result in us having more and more annoying screening? (shoes, then liquids, now underwear.... just saying ;) )

Anywho, so I ended up at my gate about 2 and a half hours before my flight took off and now I am on said flight, which I still have another 2 hours on, and I am bored out of my mind! I have tons of work to be doing for school, and I would have done it at the airport, but there was no wireless (and I didn't get a book from the library bc I was worried I was going to be late to the airport! ha!). I now clearly have wireless, but planes make me sleepy *pout* not that I can actually fall asleep of course. So doing research is so not happening. And the internet isn't good enough to even watch fun stuff on Youtube and I think I've read all the spanking fanfiction that exists. 

POUT
and POUT, did I say POUT :(

So I thought I'd come on here and say hey :) and Happy Thanksgiving! :) We're coming up on my 2 year blog birthday, which is crazy, btw. 

Also, my best friend is having her first play date this weekend with a (really sweet) guy (23) for whom this is also kinda a first time thing. So any advice you'd like to send them, post in the comments. I'm sure they would love any last minute words of advice you can give :)

I hope that everyone has safe travels and enjoys their time with families and friends. And for those of you who might happen to be British, this is my response. :) 

or

DAMNIT. Grrr I wrote all that out before I found the clips. They were very witty. But of course they are not on youtube. The first was of Giles calling all American's "Bloody Colonials" in the episode Pangs of Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Thanksgiving episode (that happens to be my favorite) famous for http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T33jnYcE8_o and for the "You made a bear! Undo it! Undo it!" and "Syphilis!? It gave me syphilis!?!" and "Angel!....Are you evil?" "No! Why does everyone keep thinking I'm evil!") But of course what i wand it not there!!! *Throws something* HMPH!!! 
The second one was of Russel Brand on Rachel Ray the other day (God I dont' watch that show, but I saw the clip online and it was funny) of him saying that on thanksgiving all Brits hand their head in shame. It was funny :)

Oh well :(

Well, still, have a happy thanksgiving. I might post a Thanksgiving spanking related post tomorrow if I can. :)

xoxo
Princess Kelley

PS. I need a spanking- anyone want to dish out a few swats? ;)

PSS. Omfg, the women next to me just busted out some very smelly wrap type thing. Seriously? SERIOUSLY?! basic manners people. basic. 

Thursday, November 18, 2010

happy Halloween!

So i haven't put my photos from Halloween on my computer yet but i realized i could email this one from my phone to my blog. Pretty sweet!

Anyway, this is night one, and my first Halloween of age, and thus in a bar. Uh oh. Kelley in a bar? Recipe for naughtiness!

And this photo inspired my response and thus quote of the night

'Oh you look hot! are you britney spears?'
'thanks! Actually no, im a fetish'

:-D

xoxo
Princess Kelley

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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Gleeful Spanking

Soooooo

I bet ya'll will be excited. Oh My Gosh! She's actually going to write a post that has to do with spanking! lol

Well, I could spend hours talking about my love of Lea Michelle's voice (and Rachel in general) and how I sang her solo from their version of Don't Stop Believing for my accapella group last year, and how much fun it is to sing songs that someone with a very similar voice to myself is (not that in anyway I think I'm as good as she is! I mean she is beyond a gem (as are Amber, aka Mercedes, and Chris, aka Kurt), but my voice has similar patterns). Sometimes I wish that I could just post the videos for ya'll- its so much fun for people to see me perform. :( Oh well. Its part of a different life. :)

BUT anywho, that is NOT the point of this post. This post is about this picture.
So I first saw this in a blog article linked from Yahoo questioning bullshit about if the cover currently on GQ or this one was too risqué for the show or the actors. Whatever. Like I said, bullshit.
BUTT ;)
Rachel, as those of you who know the show well know, is in desperate need of a good spanking (hopefully from Mr. Shue in my opinion- actually I read a good fanfic of that if anyone is interested). But regardless of that, Lea's backside....well its just asking for one, wouldn't you say?

(Interesting side note: Lea got her first shot at stardom in the Tony award winning Broadway show "Spring Awakening," and in the show her character is switched. Actually she begs to be switched. I watched the clip though, its a bit creepy in my opinion, but fascinating nonetheless)


I'm just wondering though, if the first time you saw the Glee picture the first thing that popped in your head was this oh so wonderful and just classic National Lampoon cover?

Love ya'll! :)

xoxo
Princess Kelley


PS. I saved these images over a month ago...damn I'm behind on blogging....maybe I need a spanking? ;)



Sunday, November 14, 2010

I Love Pink

The color too, but right now I'm talking about the singer, P!nk as she is officially known on iTunes.

I have been a huge fan of hers since I was 11 and she came on the scene with her hiphop esque first album. Then of course, Misunderstood.... I don't think there has ever been an album that spoke more perfectly to those of us in middle school than that CD. And that was me at the time. Plus "Family Portrait" I truly believe is one of the greatest and most heart crushing songs of all time. I love the vast majority of her songs (Dear Mr. President, Glitter in the Air, Sober, Just Like a Pill, God is a DJ, Who Knew, U and Ur Hand all come to mind), and then of course there is the fact that she has a very similar belt range to me. Thats a singing term. Mine is a bit higher than hers, but that just means all her songs are really easy for me to just belt to the heavens. (I sang Dear Mr. President acapella at my high school (in TX) open mic night- it was fucking awesome)

The song Trouble was my person anthem for about 4 years. I never did anything really wrong (other than get in some fights with teachers....and get them fired :) ) bc I needed to get into college (naturally) but in my mind, I was trouble. Oh soooo much trouble. :)

Hmmm, guess I wasn't too far off....

Well the reason I'm posting this is because I have just watched the music video for Raise Your Glass about 7 times, and I just....LOVE it! I mean some of the animal rights stuff gets a bit intense, but the overall message, and especially the end with her dancing, LMFAO. And I just felt like I really needed to share. :)


Anywho, you should all watch it. And just rock the fuck out. Bc we ARE all awesome, and wrong in all the right ways.
Spankos sometimes, well we tend to look down at ourselves for a good chunk of our lives I feel. Until we find this type of arena, when we realize we're not alone. But I totally know, for that reason and so many more, what this is all about, and I am just so thankful that we are all here together to be able to say loud and clear, "here I am. If you don't like me, fuck you!" And I know that one day we will all be able to say that out loud too. Even if its only to ourselves.

So, we should fucking raise a glass to ourselves because we deserve it.

HERE'S TO US!

xoxo
Princess Kelley


Wow. So I was just adding all of the links for this post, and I was listening to Dear Mr. President...I had forgotten how powerful that song is, even if you don't agree with the political message, the music itself is so amazing. I just want to belt it out! Damn dorm room!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Bullet Points

Not joking, so sick of writing in actual writing format, so ya'll are getting bullets. But I promise more non-bullets to come. These are in no order, and of no specific topic. revision- I'm doing pseudo topics separated by spaces...maybe...if html wants to cooperate

  • So Yahoo decided to spam half of ya'lls comments on my last post. Stupid yahoo. I live for comments. They make me feel so special. And had I gotten them I might have been encouraged to do this sooner (unlikely, but possible)
  • Yahoo did NOT spam the 3 from "phonesex." seriously yahoo? Seriously?

  • I am a pharmaceutical company's wet dream.
  • about a month ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression. This is in addition to my generalized anxiety disorder with panic attacks. It was bad, but not bad like I know many people who suffer with depression do. Mostly probably as a result of the fact that I was already on meds for the anxiety.
  • I am also in the middle of an identity/existential crisis.
  • This is probably the biggest reason I haven't been on here much, or responding to emails. I just haven't done anything.

  • If you have emailed me, and I haven't responded to you, I PROMISE I am not ignoring you. In fact, your email might have been the only thing that made me smile, or think of this world that day. I read them. I love them. I am a failure as a southerner for not responding. Bc ya'll deserve a response. Thank you for being the greatest friends/fans ever. :)

  • Glee is the best show on television
  • Ok. False. Welllll. Glee is the best show on television, BUT, Supernatural (which is still on tv, but I'm not loving this season) is in the running for best show of all time (currently about to overtake Buffy as my favorite ever. Joss Whedon still rules all though).
  • Glee=singing= Rachel =love=spanking- a post will follow about this i PROMISE.

  • I literally spent 27 hours the other weekend reading Supernatural spanking fanfiction. Some wincest (don't judge, wincest is just slash but better), some not. But yes, 27 hours. This is only slightly abnormal for me.
  • However, there were also fanvids involved. this is abnormal. They have nothing to do with spanking.
  • I also intend to attend a Supernatural convention. Not joking. I am that person.
  • If you didn't understand half of the terminology involved in this section, don't worry. You're normal. (But I must say, so not cool *wink*)

  • Speaking of conventions, no I was not able to attend the Shadow Lane party. Mainly because hosting a "Back to School" party generally means that those going back to school are, hey, what a concept, back at school.
  • Also, given what happened in London this summer, I don't think I will be attending a party unless I am "known" or have a date.

  • Also speaking of Shadow Lane, just rented the new Keith Jones movie, "Smarty Pants." Great film! Love the new girl, she is very pretty. Kinda reminds me of me when I was thinner. Definitely brats like I do. Hey, sometimes the answer to, "are you going to behave?" is simply "No."
  • Also rented for the first time Cold Comfort Farm. Damn. I know that the spanking is pretty weak, which is probably why some people who haven't watched a shadow lane video since the 80s might think that they're all like that, but I didn't care- those girls were hot. SOOO dated, but still hot. And Keith before he turned grey! OMG! Its like when I saw Mark Harmon (Gibbs) was the Sexiest Man Alive in 85 and was young and I was like, wtf?
  • ....wow that bullet had too many teenager isms

  • Rachel Maddow rules my world :)

  • I have no desire to figure out what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, or for that matter what I plan to do after I graduate! I'm thinking Europe.

  • I like wine. A lot. But alcohol in too large a quantity is baddddddddd (re: don't do shots of Baileys and vodka)

  • I got an Android. Love it. :)

  • My roommate is the hottest thing that God ever created. I kinda forgot this when I asked to room with her. It can be a bit distracting....
  • She needs a spanking SOOOO badly
  • She's Super vanilla. :(
  • I am a massive creeper.
  • There is a photo on here of her ass from a year ago....I've taken more since.
  • Yes she knows I'm bi, but she just likes it because I give her good attention that her long distance stupid boyfriend doesn't give her. And because I can tell her what lingerie looks hottest. And she knows I know these things :)

  • We have a mouse in our room. We named him JJ. Jerry Jr. Bc I had a mouse last year that I named Jerry (Tom and Jerry), so this one is JJ.
  • We may have named him, but we REALLY want him to go far far away.

  • One of my seminar professors is letting me write my research paper on the history of the sprawled out female nude. Not joking. So fucking excited.

  • And speaking of the word Fuck. Two best songs I'm listening to right now that aren't from Glee or directly Top 40
  • Fuck You by Cee Lo Green. Watch this video. Not only is the song awesome but the video is just....omg.
  • Black and Blue by Zach Chance, I have no idea what this video is- just listen to the song

  • Halloween, oh Halloween. I'm sorry ya'll didn't get your annual post, but you will get pictures.
  • Day One. Naughty Catholic School Girl.
  • "Oh! You look so hot! Are you Britney Spears?"
  • "Thanks! No, actually, I'm a fetish."
  • Day Two: Vampire. I don't think my boobs have ever been that out there.

Ok, I'm tired now, that's all I have to say for the moment, but the Glee spanking post as well as the Halloween photos....and maybe some of my sketchy photos of my roommate as well....will be up soon.

I love you all for always

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I'm Still Alive

And so is this blog. I promise

I just....have been having a really busy and rough semester so far. And this blog, like many other things in my life, the longer I go without saying anything on it, the harder it is to say something. Bc I feel like I've let someone down, or its too late, or whatever. September was the only month in 2 years I haven't posted a single thing. Not something I'm proud of.

This is all I'm saying for now...today was a bad day. But maybe tomorrow I'll give a bullet pointed version of the last two months :)

I love ya'll so much, and I hope you can forgive my absence.

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Most Me

I have decided that the last post "Vanillaish" is the most accurate post as a representation of me as a person I have done so far. Normal college girl traveling the globe eating way too much awesome food with her friends, then giddy young me excited to be with a beautiful animal in the great outdoors. Then sex pot me. Then mature me. Then vintage sex pot.

All very me. And a pretty well rounded representation I might add. Here's two more to go with it. One old one that shows me laughing and being a goofball- something I do a lot, but you don't get to see as much, and one more from Colorado, just because I'm obsessed with the photos of this sunset I took after this (soon I'll give ya'll a post of just my art photos).

Love you!



xoxo
Princess Kelley

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Vanilla(ish) Picture Post

What can I say, when it rains, it pours :) There is literally almost no purpose to why I'm posting this first one now, other than I though, sure, why not? The ISH gets more pronounced as you scroll down...



In Brugge :) Belgian waffel with icecream, whipped cream, and fudge sauce. I was sick for two days :). But I cleaned my plate ;)


Me, on a cliff, on top of a horse, trying to take a picture of myself :)
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So, most of these are all of me getting ready to go to my "Belated 21st B-day Dinner" with my godparents. I got this FABULOUS dress in Rome, and am absolutely in love with it. It makes me feel so sexy. So I knew that I wasn't going to wear red lips (or my hair with the big feather from London in it) but I just had to see what it looked like. The last picture is how I ended up in the end, lol. Much more "appropriate" for a nice dinner on the town with your high society relatives, lol. :)






The pearls just make the outfit don't ya think?
(Btw, I actually really like this picture a lot. It makes me feel mature, and like a senior in college should look :). Its actually quite me.
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"My Christina Hendricks Moment"

(Joan from "Mad Men" (or Saffron from Firefly))
Note: this is the same evening, but a different bra and skirt that was just in my closet. It was inspired by the panties I was wearing....I know, that's ironic given that you can't see them. Sorry :(





xoxo
Princess Kelley

Picture Post

A bit of penance, and a bribe for forgiveness for my long absence :)





xoxo
Princess Kelley

Culture Shock

Hey Team,
Sorry for the long absence. Its been a pretty rough month for me.

I got back to the states on August 2nd, and lets just say I have had the easiest of times readjusting to American life- or living at my parents house before my senior year starts up and I go back to school.

I've basically been feeling trapped to be honest. I went from being able to get to Paris in an hour and a half if I wanted to whenever I wanted to, to not being able to go to Walgreens if my Mom's car wasn't home (they sold my car when I left for college since I can't have it at my school- no where to park, or need really- but in Texas, there is ALWAYS a need for a car). Then there is the fact that my mother and I do not get along the vast majority of the time. I went from living on my own to having someone knock on my door for whatever reason and the second they walk in they want to know "what am I doing on the computer? Have you worked on your Fulbright application? are you going to unpack those boxes? why is your closet light on?" Its wonderful too when those things get asked of me 10 minutes after I've woken up, when I've been in a country for less than a week. Now its feeling more like just the old annoyance (times 10) that its always been to be here, but back when I first got back, I really felt like someone had ripped me from a life I was perfectly happy with and stuck me in one and trapped me there.

In the middle, for some reason my parents decided that we should take a family trip to this club we belong to in Colorado. Now, I haven't been to colorado since I was 5, so it was surprisingly beautiful and fun. Lots of outdoor activities, I wasn't forced to be with them all the time, and when I was the weather and the view made it worth while. I'll post some pictures.

But now I'm back. I leave for school on Friday. I'm very sad to leave my friends here though- Michael (who is doing SO much better, but still totally imobile basically) isn't going back to his campus this year, and I'm sad I'm not going to get to visit him there. Really and truly, my friends are the reason I like being here at all, but this time its been extra difficult with the having to be back in the US (God I miss Italian food if nothing else) and trying to prepare for my senior year, and then the rest of my life (which everyone seems to want me to have figured out). Oh, familial expectations, how I have not missed you.

OK, I'm done ranting, and I'm going to give you some good posts I promise. I've honestly been doing that thing where you put something off for so long that then you want to put it off more and more. Yaaaaaaa, sorry bout that ya'll. :( (feel free to spank away- I really could use one)

In fun, what to expect soon news, I told my last best friend from home, Brittany, about spanking and she took it really well :)- that story coming soon. Then she and I went panty shopping! WOOHOOO, so I have 20 new pairs of panties to show you. Please feel encouraged to voice your opinions about how you would like to see them ;). Sadly for ya'll, she has vehemntly refused to allow a few fabulous photos of her wonderful dancers butt in a cute teddy she got for her new boyfriend to be put on this website, but I'll give you a nice description later, lol. :)

Also to come posts on: spanking industry stuff I'm newly in love with, My limits, British playdates, The need for a Code Word, "good girl," Bordello, and my different states of pouting. Please tell me in the comments which ones you would be interested in hearing about, and I will write those first :).

Love ya'll, as always, and I have missed you! I need to remember that I can always seek safety here. :)

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

A Helping Hand

Hey Team,

David decided that this would be a fun undertaking on Sunday. :) It was entertaining, albeit painful :) Hope you like the results. If only I could have done this a year or so ago for Todd and Suzy's contest!








xoxo

Princess Kelley

PS. For the record, these are WAY higher on my bottom than is typically allowed. Going too close to my lower back (/top of my bottom) is a big no-no limit with me. But I allowed it for the sake of the art ;) And because it was only 4 ridiculoulsy hard smacks, so I didn't really have time to complain, and after the first 2 he couldn't change where he'd put them! lol :)

Michael Update

Hey Team,

So thank you to everyone who has kept Michael in their thoughts and prayers, I can't tell you how much your support has meant to me. As of right now, Michael is back home with his family. Well actually he's in a hospital at home, but atleast he's not in Italy anymore. They are saying he's going to be released into an out patient rehab program next week, and hope that he should be able to go back to school (not functioning fully by any means) but that he can Go (he goes to school in the northeast) on time. His leg is supposed to heal in about 6 to 7 months, and his brain...well we're hoping for the best.

Let me tell you a bit about what happened and my time there. (I'm sorry if this is too much or just really off topic to some people, but its on my mind a lot lately, so bear with me)

Michael was on a school trip in Capri when he was hit by a young boy on a Vespa. Michael flew 15 ft in the air and over 2 trees before crashing down on the sidewalk (Michaels very nice camera was later found 50 ft away in a garden). As you can imagine, its a miracle he is alive. The boy by the way, also crashed, but was thankfully wearing a helmet and is ok. What happened after is really all a bunch of just...luck...that we still have him with us here. Someone near by heard the crash and called the police before even looking to see what happened. Some police were near by and able to come quickly. Upon seeing the situation, the cop called for the helicopter to be readied, as he knew they would not be able to handle the situation on Capri itself. Michael at this time was awake and talking, cracking jokes like normal, the bone was just sticking out of his leg. Thank god one of the EMT's happened to ask if anything other than his leg hurt and he said (thank god he speaks italian) that his head kinda hurt. He was in surgery within the hour. There was bleeding on the inside of his skull but it hadn't reached his brain yet, which is why he is...well not a vegetable or dead. Minutes...minutes....and my best friend could be lying 6 ft under...

I flew down to Naples for the weekend two weekends ago and made it to the hospital where his parents and Michael were. The hospital was a massive city like complex that reminded me a lot of Cuba to be honest, but the treatment there was wonderful (if not as attentive as American care.) They saved Michael's life. I won't go into what happened in the neuro ward when I wasn't there, but just imagine a distraught mother who speaks no Italian trying to get information about her comatose son.

Anyway, so the first day I was there, he was pretty good. The scar on his head is ridiculous, and his leg was still in a cast. He's thin, and he was just...pretty helpless. But he could kinda talk to me. He would mumble a lot and he lost energy very quickly, but he can still understand Italian and we talked about Carravaggio. :) I ran around trying to get as much information from the nurses (men though, I'm not sure what they would be called, but I think they're nurses) as I could. There were no doctors-- for what reasons I'm still unsure of, other than the "its sunday, and its italy" reason. I also talked to all the familys on the floor. He was in an ortho ward, so one of the boys there had had the surgery Michael was going to have (Michaels was the only one who had also been in the neuro/ICU ward). Michaels parents didn't realize how well I spoke, and were very grateful in the end. I just did what I could. I was a good "squeaky wheel" as my mother would say. :)

The second day was rougher. I had downloaded a movie on my computer (he didn't have Any of his stuff with him, and I figured he was bored out of his mind) for us to watch (Invictus) but he was never really with it, and too tired to watch. He wasn't really talking or making sense, and his eyes were hurt by the light. He slept basically the entire day, and was extremely NOT lucid when he was awake. It was really rough for me to see. My best friend sitting there but just not really there. Also one of his eyes doesn't really open fully. That apperently is still one of the biggest problems, and the doctors are just saying his eyes (now with double vision sometimes) will heal with time.

His mood apparently is much better than it was. He had been waiting over a week for his leg surgery. He got it the day after I left. I made sure of it, lol. He kept waking up and thinking it was Monday and would get so depressed when we told him it was still Sunday. I finally was like, if you wake up, and I'm not here, its time for your surgery. I was devestated I had to leave. Even just sitting there, and going to the little mini market in the bacement of one of the buildings in the hospital to help them get groceries felt to me like I was helping in some way, and that he knew I was with him, even when he was asleep. His parents, by the way, were handling the whole Italy thing so well. They were making everything into a positive- it was really inspiring.

Since then, they managed to fly him home (with a doctor on board) and he is in the hospital at home. My mom went to visit him for a bit the other day and said he was doing well. I think that the moral victory of having his leg set (even if it means there is effectively a 3 hole punch looking metal thing on the side of his calf for the next 6 months) and moving forward was a lot for him and his progress. Plus they just say, his brain is fine, we just have to let it heal and wake at its own speed.

Ok, that's it. Thank you for listening, and thank you for your support. I love you all, and am about to follow this up with a much more light-hearted post to cheer everyone up. And remember, Michael is in good spirits they say, so we can be too! :)

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Monday, July 19, 2010

Life Update

Hey team,

I am alive.
A really shitty friend and blogger, but alive.

I am so sorry for my long absence, and I'm even sorrier to those of you who have been worried about me. All is well, I have just been kinda out of it the last couple of weeks. And not just from ya'll. Literally, my friends and family hadn't heard from me either. I'm so sorry.

But I have a list a mile long of things to tell you about, and as I'm writing this it's starting to feel better...I just needed to make myself do it.

I think part of me was scared to write. This place lost something for me in all the drama that happened, but that's behind me now, and its time for Kelley to get her grove back!

And to start things off, everyone say thank you to my new boy David, for the wonderful photos (and possibly video) coming soon :). I'll be telling you more about him soon (though not everything sadly, as he is a reader on here) as well as an update on Michael and on just life in general, and more spanking fun, very very soon. I promise!


I may be in the UK, but I'll always be an All-American girl :)



Love you!! More to come soon :)

xoxo

Princess Kelley

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Kisses

"What do you want?"

"What do you do?"

"Everything. But I don't kiss on the mouth"

"Neither do I."

                -Pretty Woman

So right now I'm on a flight to Naples to go visit Michael and his parents at the hospital for the weekend. They are going to try to move him to Rome today, so I might end up on a train right after I land, but Rome will be a much better place than Naples I think. And his program is in Rome so hopefully that would mean more of his friends would be able to visit him. His mom says he's getting a bit discouraged at the slow progress and feeling lonely I'm sure. He is making progress but it's very slow. He's still not totally with us yet, but I know in my heart that he will get better. He has to get better.

But, on a better note, I have great news. I have been kissed. Kissed? You ask. Yes kissed. Well spanked and held and felt up too, lol, but for the purposes of right now, I have been kissed.

Last night I met a wonderful young man named David, and I impulsively invited him over to my apartment after only talking with him for about 48 hours. It just seemed like it would work, and it is very American to have friends over to your apartment just to hang out. So I'd spoken to him on the phone and seen pictures and I just felt safe that I could have him over. My turf- also a first for me, and SOO wonderful. (Of course Momma had a minor fit that my "turf" looked like a war zone, so I had to clean before company could come over).

Anywho, so he came over, and we just chatted for about an hour- I was feeling him out, getting comfortable. We really didn't talk about spanking much at all. It was pretty much all vanilla- which was actually really nice. This entire thing has re-encouraged me. After what has happened lately, I was just wanting out of London- wanting to go home, and honestly a bit scared to meet anyone else. But this was something I knew how to do. I can meet single men and I know how to play with them and how to keep myself safe.

Fortunately, David and I got along really well- he's funny and sweet and caring and he treats me really well- and so we progressed to playing.

Then things got interesting.

I am going to tell you about all the interesting things (including but not limited to water bottles, extreme bratting, wet bottom spankings, punishment spankings, semi public spankings and semi public exposure), but right now what I want to talk about is kissing.

I actually was thinking about writing a post on this before he came, and after he came, now my post has changed drastically.

Everyone knows the line from Pretty Woman, it's a classic. But it's something I've come to notice about myself over the last couple of years. I remember when I was 15 and this girl that I started eating lunch with who was new to the school and a bit more rebellious than I was, shocked me when she said that she had had sex with a guy the night before and afterwards realized that she never kissed him. Now remember that even though I've been looking at porn since I was 10, I never wanted sex- I wanted to be spanked. So the fact that she had sex was shocking in itself (most all of my friends never had) but that she hadn't kissed him to me made her seem like…well like Vivian in the movie.

I have since changed my mind.

Kissing for me is the most intimate act of all. The one that stands above the rest as the make or break moment for me in knowing if I want someone as a romantic interest. And I often just don't kiss, because for me, a kiss that isn't right- not necessarily a Bad kiss, just one that doesn't feel right- is the fastest thing in the world to pull me out of a situation and leave me a willing spectator instead of participant to a sexual situation.

Yes, I've made out with guys at parties, and in Florence in April I made out with a guy I was barely attracted to in a club just because I was feeling tired of being so inactive. It was worthless. Its like just going through the motions. Eyes opened, head thinking about what I'm having for breakfast the next morning. Until yesterday it had been over a year since I was last kissed in a way that felt right. Since my ex (well when I met up with Jonathon last July we kissed he assures me, but that was such a different time for me, as I was recovering from my breakup then still) I have played a couple times and been spanked by a couple different people (though as you all know it had been about a year for that too), but not kissed.

When I was playing with Abel and Haron, we'd been playing for like 2 hours and I had been naked and orgasmed a few times already when he tried to kiss me. He was holding me and rubbing me and everything just felt so perfect, but the second he tried to kiss me, I knew it was wrong (the kiss was good, but my heart wasn't there). Sometimes, if I don't care that much, I will just let the kiss happen, even if I'm not feeling it, but that time, I stopped it. In part because I desperately didn't want to be pulled out of my heaven that I was in, and also because I was uncomfortable about the fact that his wife was at that moment suckling my breast. As I told him when I pulled away "you're wife is right there!" Her fabulous response "You don't hear me complaining do you?" Lol. I then kissed her (my first girl/girl kiss!!!)

About a month ago, I stupidly tired texted my ex (it's like driving. You know how they say that tired driving is as bad as drunk driving? Tired texting is as bad as drunk texting.) saying "I miss kissing you." Because at that moment, I did. I still do sometimes. It was the one thing about our relationship that always worked, and never felt wrong. Even spanking sometimes got complicated and dark, but kissing- kissing him was the best part. Feeling like I was his. Feeling his love. And even as I grow and fall in love again and again, his kiss will always be his kiss. Other people will kiss well or better and they will have their own place in my heart. But his kiss for me has always epitomized what I miss about him and my relationship with him. I can get sex- I just have to ask some guy in a bar. I can get a spanking fairly easily if I just ask the right places. But getting a kiss that feels right, getting a kiss that is right in my soul, that is much harder to find.

I can have an extremely deep connection with someone, and want to be fucked and felt and spanked by them, and want them in my life desperately (cough Abel and Haron cough) but kissing still wouldn't be something I'd want to do. It is unrelated to spanking, and really unrelated to sex. Certainly unrelated to friendship. Cuddling and spanking and orgasming and cuddling will make me feel safer and closer and more loved in those situations than kissing will. Kissing is romance….kissing is just different.

And last night I got kissed. It took me about 3 hours of him being there and 2 of us playing with me naked and him giving me all over body kisses before I let go and gave in. I was worried it wouldn't be there, and that it would pull me out of the place that I had to fight to get in yesterday (will explain that later). But it didn't. It felt good and it felt right and I just let myself relax into it. I let myself feel it. I let myself be. It was a wonderful kiss too. Not aggressive (no tongue until after a few minutes), just gentle and caring. Later he kissed me against a wall and I lost my breath. I forgot where I was. …

I don't think that David and I are going to become bf/gf or anything if for no other reason than I am going home in 4 weeks, but I am just feeling so happy. I feel back to normal, and I feel cared for and special. I feel beautiful. I feel important. And I feel well spanked and well kissed as I sit on this plane. J

Xoxo

Princess Kelley


Sunday, June 27, 2010

One of the Best Days of My Life Part 2

So I bought my ticket and we got on the train towards their home. Now the butterflies in my tummy are starting to go, but it’s mostly just happiness, not nervousness. Miss Haron at one point asked “shouldn’t we maybe discuss what it is that you want?” I laughed and said “I don’t know, to play?” Abel thought that was a cute reply. :) They sat next to each other on the train ride and I sat across in a 4 person section (one of the ones with the little table between). I loved the way he had his arm around her, or would hold her hand- they are wonderful together. I was getting sleepy on the train (it was around 4:30 or 5 by then- past my nap time) which made me feel “little” but in a good way, because with them, I never once felt unsafe.

I don’t what prompted this, but one time I stuck my tongue out at Abel, a little bratty trick that I am very fond of- its cute and endearing, and not harmful in any way or dangerous to property, lol- and he gave me the look. Mmmmmmm. Miss Haron laughed and said “Uh oh, you’re on thin ice.” I smirked, feeling extra bratty and immediately did it again, “getting thinner” they both replied. Not exactly sure what possessed me at this next moment (actually yes I am, I wanted the ice to crack and I didn’t want there to be any doubt about it!) but I proceeded to flip him off while smirking. “Crack” Miss Haron replied while trying to contain laughter. Abel just kept giving me that amazing top look and said “We will discuss that when we get home young lady” or something to that extent.

Home couldn’t come soon enough. They have a lovely home, and as soon as I got there, Abel led me upstairs so I could skype my momma so she’d see him and know I was safe. Then Miss Haron needed to Skype her real life mom, and Abel and I went downstairs (oh btw, they have the sweetest and cutest kitty cat!!!). He was sitting on the couch, and I immediately spotted this little plastic water gun on the table. Apparently it’s for the cat. Yeah right. I say it’s there specifically to entice brats like me into trouble! I pick it up without hesitation, and the “No, young lady, put it down-s” begin. It actually took a long time to squirt, and he kept telling me no the whole time, but when it finally did, you would have thought I wasn’t pumping it with the shocked look on my face as water shot out across at Abel.

He rose from the couch and I just didn’t move. I immediately put down the gun as though it had burned me, but other than that, I didn’t move. He came around and said something along the lines of “that’s it young lady” and took me by the arm and led me upstairs. On the way up he asked Miss Haron where she was, and was about to ask her to move downstairs, but she was in an ok room I supposed- didn’t really get that- I just know that his tone was really sexy. He brought me into their bedroom and stood right in front of me, giving me the sternest look. Now, without my shoes (which I had left downstairs upon entering their home) Abel is taller than me, but not by a whole lot, but his lecture and his look made me feel very small indeed. I know that they aren’t DD people in the way that I am, but he would be really good at it! Lol.

(Oh, apparently I said something during this lecture that almost made him laugh out loud at my brattiness, and he told me later he had to work really hard to maintain his composure, but I can’t for the life of me remember what I said)

He sat on the edge of the bed, and told me to take my “trousers” down, but my panties for now, stayed up. He placed me across his knee and…well I’m not going to lie to ya’ll, I know that some awesome things were said at this point, but it is all just a blur. And I’m sure especially for you long term readers that you know my favorite type of spanking is hand otk, and this did not disappoint. Abel’s hand HURTS. This time though he did give me a warm up, but over the course of a year without any spankings not delivered by my own hands, I had forgotten just how much it stings!! Such a wonderful wonderful sting. I was squirming quite quickly and yelping as the swats rained down on my bottom. Oh, and he did such a good job lecturing too. He told me that had it just been for my naughty behavior on the train I might have gotten to keep my panties up (he might have said knickers, lol) but that my behavior with the water gun meant I had to get a bare bottom spanking. THANK GOD! Lol.

And ya’ll know how I love that feeling of them being pulled down. It’s one of my favorite parts of the whole spanking. Sigh. But then he went to town. My oh my. I was about sobbing after 10 of his hard swats, yelping and writhing for sure. Then he stopped and rubbed my bottom, and reached over to the night stand, picking up a hairbrush. I whined pititully. He said “that was for punishment, this is for discipline, you know the difference right young lady?” “yes sir” I replied like a good girl. Sigh, I love saying sir. :) he spanked me with the brush for a bit, and then let me up, he had me pull my pants and panties up and then held me close as I finished sobbing- no tears, and the sobs didn’t last long (neither did the spanking) but it’d just been so long- and it felt so good. Then he asked the silly question of if he hurt me and if I was ok. Lol, I said of course I’m fine :) That was wonderful! And gave my always response of “Thank you for spanking me sir” with a tight hug.

He chuckled and just seemed so pleased with everything- as was I. He later told me that this was one of his favorite parts of the whole evening. And it was quite wonderful.

So we got up and started mulling around and I found the HUGE stash of implements. HUGE. Mondo big. Way too many implements for anyone’s own good. Lol. And all very British. We were just looking around and chatting when Miss Haron walked in.

“Well those were some interesting noises to explain to my mother.”

And now the real fun (aka crazy shit) begins….

xoxo
Princess Kelley

One of the Best Days of My Life Part 1

Ok, I think I’m ready, so here we go.

I don’t promise I can remember it all as I was in a well spanked stupor for most of it, so let’s just hope that Miss Haron will forgive me and one of them will write their side of the story (as I would love to read it sooo much as well).

Where to begin? I suppose the beginning would be best. The lovely Miss Bonnie mentioned Abel as a good resource in the UK, and when he emailed me two weeks ago, I thought, sure, this sounds like a good opportunity, especially since these people are already vouched for. We only actually like exchanged a few emails before we met, lol, which we both have acknowledged was kinda ridiculous. But in the end it didn’t matter.

They had me meet them at Piccadilly Circus at 1:00 on Saturday and we were just scheduled to get lunch. Ya’ll saw the post about that, lol. For the record I ended up wearing my tight jeans (b/c it was cold) and a sexy top with black wedges (which resulted in my towering over the very petite Miss Haron, lol). The connection, on my end, was instant. It didn’t feel like I was meeting new people, it felt more like I was getting together with old friends.

They took me to a lovely Belgian restaurant that was “just a few minutes away” as Abel said. Liar. Lol. It was very fun though, as well as yummy and the conversation was easy and free. It was different than some of my other spanko meetings. Well for starters I’d never met a spanko girl before, so that was a first, nor had I ever met more than one person at a time, or a couple. So lots of firsts, as I mentioned before. But also, I am one of those people who can tell within about 15 minutes of meeting someone if it’s going to work out- especially with spankos, and I’m quite impulsive/decisive with the way I feel. I’ve been on dates with guys who right after the meal I said my goodbyes and headed home, never to see them again, because I knew it wasn’t right. I’ve also met guys, been kinda turned on the entire time I was with them, and then go back to their place right after.

With Abel and Haron, I knew that I wanted to play, and I wasn’t sure if they were game, but the new part was that the whole time I wasn’t feeling horny, I was just feeling comfortable. Well on occasion when Miss Haron would act up a bit and he would give her “the look” my tummy would do a bit of a dance, but there was no overt flirting on either side.

As I said, they were not exactly keen to play on the first meeting. Miss Haron said it wasn’t very responsible or adult like. I quickly pointed out that I’m 21 years old, and can easily blame my irresponsible behavior on my age. Abel returned from the restroom and I whined in my sweetest voice that I wanted to play and was so disappointed that we couldn’t (because they live outside of London). He, after a bit more whining and hinting from me, said well why don’t you come back home with us?
Happy Dance!!!!
I immediately text begged Momma and Daddy to let me go, and they said yes after reminding me of “the rules.”

But before we went, we decided to wander around London a bit, and they showed me some really awesome sex shops! Lol, I was in heaven. We went to this one that was just gorgeous. Implements that were actually decent, and just stunning toys- that of course were way out of everyone’s price range, but just so fun to look at. One of those places that makes you feel really good about liking sexy things. They even had jade butt plugs- which I am very intrigued by (I like the metal ones with the stones on the end but I am allergic to metal, so I think the jade might be a nice alternate).

Anywho, then we went to another store that was more practical, and Miss Haron bought some toys for her new boy-toy and I had fun just looking around (I’m in the market for a new vibrator). Then we headed towards the train…

xoxo
Princess Kelley

Songs that make me think of...

Spanking of course. :)

Hey team,
So the drama is passing and subsiding from my being a little more every day. Abel has forgiven me, but Miss Haron has not, and that fact is weighing very heavily on my heart. Hopefully as time passes, and I can show her that I really am a good girl, she will forgive me, and give me another chance.

But in the meantime, I will be posting the story of our day together today- I'm ready :). But I was in a haze half the time, so if you want to know the other side of the story, and you happen to be readers of their blog, you should ask them very nicely to tell their side- though, since she's pissed at me, I don't think that's going to happen. :( Sorry team.

But for now, we are doing fun posts that reclaim my blog as MINE. Away from the hate mail senders and threats of violence. This place is mine and it is a place for fun. So for the moment, that is what we are going to have- fun. :)
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So I wrote this list on a train in Italy I have no idea how long ago. I believe it was inspired by a post by the ever wonderful Bonnie who did a similar list. So these are the songs, in no particular order, that make me think of spanking, and why.
  • Criminal- Fiona Apple: "I've been a bad bad girl" No song has ever had a better first line.

  • Nasty Naughty Boy- Christina Aguilera: "Now come here and give me a little spanking" very few songs have ever been more explicit about it. My word I do love xxxtina. :)

  • Smack That- Akon ft. Eminem- first of all, its a great song, second, I realize its about sex, but whenever I hear it...its not. ;)

  • All 'Er Nothin- Oklahoma the Musical: So I saw Oklahoma! on Broadway when I was 13 and I almost died from arousal. First of all the man playing Curly is the actor who would go on to play Raul in The Phantom of the Opera Movie- yeah, that guy- singing Oh What a Beautiful Morning...swoon! Ok, and there is a spoon wacking in the beginning, and then Curly threatens to spank his love out right towards the end! But I just love this song- the too flirty girl and her steadfast, traditional fiance. In the 1800s in OK, oh yeah, she's getting her backside warmed later :)

  • Heartbreaker remix- Mariah Carey: So this is more about the video than the song. There are two remixes to this song one featuring JayZ, the other featuring Missy elliot and dBrat. The first is the video to which I refer which came out when I was like...12. Mariah and a bunch of back up dancers just smack their backsides during a dance sequence in a movie theatre...but I used to watch it over and over and over, lol. And then the second remix, don't like the video as much but the song has the line "I like the way he used to spank me."

  • Baby Got Back- Sir Mix A Lot- Does this one really need explaining?
  • How Many Licks- Lil' Kim- So I used to test people's level of composure by playing the unedited version of this song to them and seeing how long they could last before they would die from blushing. It just makes me think of naughty naughty things. You MUST listen to this song if you have never heard it. Plus, I'm a huge tootsie pop fan- always have been :)
  • Discovery Channel-Bloodhound Gang- ok maybe this list is turning into songs that just make me feel awesomly naughty :) lol. I can sing this entire song from memory from start to finish. So great for Karaoke! "Just like the lost catacombs of egypt only god knows where we stuck it..."
  • Loubitons- Jennifer Lopez- in addition to being a song by the girl with one of the most famous backsides of all time, and being a really awesome female empowerment song, this song has lots of nice unintentional spanking esque lines. Now, Loubitons for all the boys out there, are these really awesome shoes. Like Minolo Blanik, or Feragamo, or Jimmy Choo. You get the point. But Loubitons are really in right now, and they are famous for having a crimson red undersides. :D "Watch these red bottoms, and the back of my jeans, as we go bye baby don't know what you got until its gone. Tail lights, is all you'll see. Watch that Benz exit that drive way, yeah"
  • Sexy Back- Justin Timberlake- In the song the boy sings about being tied up and whipped, but in his VMA"s performance of the song, he changed the pronouns around and made it "Maybe I'll whip you if you misbehave" moannnnnnn. Yes please!
  • Du Hast Den Schalstden Arse del Welt (You've Got the Sweetest Ass in the World)- in German or in English, just google the Youtube video. Thank you my best friends at school who spend way too much time on Youtube for this gem :)

So what do ya'll think of my list? What are the songs that make you think of spanking. Comments (when they are not hateful) make me Very happy :D

xoxo

Princess Kelley

Friday, June 25, 2010

Messy Room

Messy Room by Shel Silverstein

Whosever room this is should be ashamed!
His underwear is hanging on the lamp.
His raincoat is there in the overstuffed chair,
And the chair is becoming quite mucky and damp.
His workbook is wedged in the window,
His sweater's been thrown on the floor.
His scarf and one ski are beneath the TV,
And his pants have been carelessly hung on the door.
His books are all jammed in the closet,
His vest has been left in the hall.
A lizard named Ed is asleep in his bed,
And his smelly old sock has been stuck to the wall.
Whosever room this is should be ashamed!
Donald or Robert or Willie or--
Huh? You say it's mine? Oh, dear,
I knew it looked familiar!

Hey team. So I am messy. Really really messy. I'm just not neat. I love the quote "those of you who keep a neat desk dont' know the joy of finding something that has been lost forever."


I'm the girl who as she walks in the door starts stripping her clothes off as she walks and dropping them on the floor as she goes. But the strange thing is, I prefer clean and neat. I'm just really lazy and not naturally clean/neat. My mother is the most anal person you will ever know (when she comes to visit me at school I will frantically clean my room for a day before she comes and she will whine the second she gets in "Oh my gosh! Do you EVER clean this place?!? You're living in filth!") and so my house at home is very clean (and my room is too, as it must be picked up on Tuesdays and Friday mornings before our maid comes or she will not wash my clothes.) And I love going home and having everything clean.


But I digress. So my general state is messy, and I will let it grow and grow until one day I can't take it anymore and I clean the whole thing til its perfect. Depedening on who I'm living with and my mental state at the time when this "one day" comes varies. And over the last few years of beign in college...well lets just say we've had some moments of a Long time between. And then there are always the "I just moved in....2 months ago...and just never unpacked..." which was kinda the situation I found myself in today, an hour and a half before my trainer was set to arrive. Yikes!
(Btw, the general day to day average is not this bad)





Now, is it just me or is the one thing missing from these photos me, with a bright red bare bottom, standing in the corner?

xoxo
Princess Kelley
PS. Feel encouraged to scold :)

PPS. Of course nothing will ever compare to the end of the year freshman year...





PPSS. Or the middle of the summer After freshman year (this one is definitely the worst- first time without a roommate away from home- this is the view from sitting on my bed)





PPPS. Oh and then there is this really pretty picture of me sophmore year...if you just ignore the background...(we always took photos on my roomies side of the room b/c it was cleaner...)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Point of Clarification

Hi Team,

Due to some shall we say...not nice.. emails I have gotten from some people, and just some that show me that I was not clear, I would like to clear up a couple points.

First of all, my meeting with Abel and Haron was amazing and while they are currently very upset with me, none of my comments that hurt people (which I realize many of you thankfully didn't read) were regarding them. No one deserved the statements I made hastily and regret saying, but they were not targetted at Abel and Haron, just as a point of clarification for those of you who are like wtf is going on? It was about a party I was invited to by friends of them, who were very nice people, it just wasn't a good situation for me. Mostly my fault.

In regards to my comment about "almost choked" I meant that in the surprised sense, not the gagging sense. I did not know going in, and finding out was surprising/shocking and in mid bite, it made for a rather amusing spectacle. The term was in ""s bc it was what he had said to me after, but not in a negative way. It is not a lifestyle I would want to participate actively in, and not one that I can view easily, but I respect everyones right to have their own lifestyles. I also reserve my right to have my own opinions- I am not trying to make anyone do something they do not wish to do, but I allowed to have my own thoughts.

Currently I have tried to make amends with the people that I hurt, and I have recieved forgiveness from some. I feel horrid about all of this- both that I hurt people and just that there is so much drama going on now in large part bc of me- and I'm not being dismissive in any way of the pain that my words and actions have caused other people. Hate mail is unneccessary.
My main concern and fear at this moment is that the people whose opinion I care most about and whos forgiveness I desperately seek- H and A- will not forgive me, and I will have lost people that I thought could have been great friends and I had a fast connection with.

I need to get back to work. I will update on Michael soon. And again, thank you to those of you who have been so kind to me and have been praying for him.

xoxo
Kelley

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

A respite from the drama

 
courtesy of Francesca :) My shining sun in my life :)
 
xoxo
Princess Kelley

Homesick

Hey Team,
This time this is for me and my team. :) This is my space, and I need it. I never realized how much I need it until I suddenly felt like it wasn't mine anymore. But I need ya'll and I need my space to be.
I can't breathe. I can't eat. Nothing has stayed down in days. Well it does, but just...i'm just so upset and everything just feels so wrong, and I just want to stop hurting!
And I just realized something. I am So homesick. I've been gone and sort of on my own for 6 months now, and I miss my friends and I miss my family and I miss my friends from school. I miss my life that I understand. I miss not having to meet new people every day. I think last night was so hard in part (well it was more spankos than I'd met in my life all in one room) bc it was so hard to not realize how lonely I have been, and then see so many friends and feel like an outsider.

So now I'm just crying, and trying to make myself go buy groceries. I'm trying to snuggle with my nana and papa like always, but its just different now. This is literally my frist time being Totally on my own. In florence I had my host family and people at school even if they weren't my friends. Then I was traveling so it was an adventure. Then my mom was here, then last week was hard but I was in another woman's house. Now I'm in an apartment all by myself which I've never done before and now all of this has happened.

I feel lost.

Like in a really existential way. I graduate next year- then what am I going to do? Where will I go? I will be by myself then too. What do I want as a spanko? Am I ready to be back in a relationship? Is the scene really for me? Should I just give up on parties and the scene life and just stick to one on one stuff with just regular people?

I want to write sooo badly about my play date with Abel and Haron in part because I'm terrified I'm forgetting it. I didn't even have a day to process before all of this drama started to unfold and my stomach started acting up. I want to write bc I think it will help me remember and cherish that amazing day. But I'm scared to write bc I'm scared it will hurt. I have humiliated them in a really epic way with the way I behaved recently. They vouched for me, and they did everything for me, and now it is they, not I, who have to deal with the fall out. So I'm scared to remember, I'm scared to write, b/c what if then I remember how amazing it was and how close I felt to them. I recall vividly the connection I felt, just so perfectly, to both of them. How their hands felt on my body. How there voices sounded. How perfect it felt to be snuggled between them.... what if I remember all those things and then they can't forgive me?

Sigh.

I forgot how much writing this all out can sometimes help.

No new news about Michael. I think I'm going this weekend but he's still not out of ICU so I wouldn't actually be able to spend more than 15 minutes with him if that- since I'm not blood family. Thank you to everyone who messaged with support. It has meant a lot to me, and thank you so much for the prayers- I know he and his family appreciate them.

I love you all, and for those of you who have no idea what the fuck is going on and are just wondering when I'm going to start posting pictures again I will appease you as soon as I can.

xoxo
Princess Kelley