"So I guess, Summary: Alive. Not Depressed. Watching too much Supernatural. Way stronger than I thought I was. Single and alone for the first time, and for the first time in a long time realizing that I'm a person that I don't know. But that's OK, because I'm kinda awesome. So getting to know me isn't so bad."Hey Team,
So after much ado (internally) here is my vlog about my life and status and such post break up. I am doing really well, just being single and alone for the first time in 5 years. Realizing that I need to heal and get to know myself before I can really do anything else. That I am stronger than I ever dreamed I was, because I kept pretending that I wasn't, and eventually I believed that to be the case.
I spent over 3 hours trying to get this done. Total fail. Could have written in by the end. But did like 3 takes- the first was half an hour and I just wasn't going to edit that. So I'm not sure if this one is totally boring or not (I have watched it too many times so I'm assuming it is), but it's pretty insightful I suppose if you haven't been inside my brain with me for the last few weeks, lol. :)
Thank you to everyone for your support. It means a lot. I have responded to comments from the last post in the last comments. I don't think I said everything I wanted to say, but there is far too much for me to have achieved that. I suppose my shower walls and I will just have to share those thoughts together. :)
Split into two parts because it was too long. I really hope some people actually watch this, lol. Worked really hard on it. :)
I make no promises on updating anything else (lots to do and say, including fun things), but I do promise not to entirely abandon the blog. :) Who knows? Maybe lots of updates are in the future.
[UGH! Just discovered my software cut in the middle of my favorite line in the whole thing! GRRR, so I'll type it in between. :)]
"Once I figure out what I want to be. ...Other than demon hunter, because, alternate universe, so even my charming wit and gigantic tits can't make that one happen...."