Dear Francesca and Clarisse

(and all my wonderful readers whom some of you might understand some of this),

OMG I CAN”T BELIEVE YOU’VE BEEN READING MY BLOG THIS WHOLE TIME!!!! ROTFLMAO, I’m SOOO glad!!!! You are so right, you just can’t get enough from Facebook. I’m just not on there enough anymore. I’m so sorry that I’ve been a bad friend to both of you really and everyone here too. I just got overwhelmed with everything and somedays I just want to turn off the fucking computer! Lol, and I got a FABULOUS tv in my room with dvr and cable so like all my free time is spent with me and Leroy Jethro Gibbs (aka the Mark Harmon, aka the star of NCIS).

Clarisse I need my roomie back!!!! My single is fabulous though. I actually have quite a lot of space, all things considered. But as you have always said, I have way too much shit! Lol, I’m actually going to ship a couple boxes home- I have no idea how I’m going to live off two suitcases like you did! Oh! And the application stuff is almost finished for Italy. Spring break you and I are living it up in France!!! But yeah, I miss you. Like the other week I went out to dinner with Emery (my first bf- guy from the accapella group Freshman year) and I was getting dressed and started to turn around to be like, “how do I look” and no one was there! Who is going to tell me I look trashy now! Lol.

Oh and Club Lau was last weekend! Haha! Dance party in the library! WOOOOO!!!!!
Francesca, omg, you need to tell me about your date! Was it with the New Orleans guy? The spanko? I want details!!! And I miss you like crazy! I’m glad we talked the other day. Oh and btw, if skype says I’m on and yet I don’t’ respond, its because I’m on with my baby sister all night- it helps her not have nightmares, so I’m probably just asleep :(.

The accapella group had auditions this past week. We got this one girl who was RIDICULOUS!! AND she’s my type. Red head. Kinda petite. Beautiful eyes. Fabulous ass. OH and a voice from God. Did her looks affect my decision making process? Most likely. Do I care. No. Lol. We were there for 5 hours on Friday, 8 hours on Sunday, and 6 hours on Wednesday! Oh and that other group (that shall not be named on this blog) they are being total bitches and trying to steal her and this other girl we took! Its total drama.

In other Kelley news, Jonathon (“daddy”) and I are still kinda together- well he’s still Daddy and still wonderful. But he’s starting to date this vanilla…and its making me really sad. But I’m trying to not let it get to me. I also haven’t been spanked or like cuddled in TWO MONTHS!!! I’m going INSANE. Like absolutely insane. I’m hoping Rich (great guy in the area- about Edward’s age- just strictly friends, but he's like the perfect Daddy type- strong, kind, caring) will pull through for me this weekend though and I can break that dry spell.

The biggest development though is my new “little sister.” Her name is Deb and she’s almost 17. DON”T FREAK OUT!!! Lol, she’s not a spanko. She’s just a girl that has had beyond a tough life (sexually abused as a child- dad died, mother doesn’t want her, etc) and needs some structure…its so complicated. But all I have to say is that Its NOT SEXUAL. She is my baby sister and I just want to wrap her up in a blanket and protect her from the world. She’s in Florida though, but we skype and talk every day. I will explain more about her later.

Also in that realm there is the development of MaryEllen or now “mommy.” Yes you heard that right. Also not sexual. Which is just SOO weird. She was Deb’s live in nurse for a year or so and now lives in a different state, but still takes care of Deb as best she can. I met her when she was grilling me about who the hell I was talking to her baby girl, and over the last couple months she has adopted me as her own as well. Lol, she’s really funny, and I think you both would like her a lot. She’s like literally the exact opposite of both John and my mother.

Speaking of John…. I’m still in love with him, and its kinda an issue. Not like a huge one- it doesn’t affect me most days…but sometimes it like comes in waves and its pretty tough. He called last week though which was unexpected and we talked for like an hour! And it was GREAT! Which of course made it SO much harder. Sigh. I love it when he’s that man I fell in love with- but sometimes its easier when he’s Mr. Hyde. Mainly I just miss him though.

Oh, and also, a great thing that has developed out of my relationship with my baby sister (she calls me Sissy, btw), is that suddenly I’m having to be the responsible one. Suddenly I’m the one that has to be strong and mature, and I think its good for me. The hard part somedays is though that its like the reverse of me and John. Some days I just am tired and want some time by myself, but she’ll have been waiting all day trying to be a good girl for me b/c she just wants to hang out. And so now I feel what John felt, but I also know exactly how she feels…sigh, I call her my mini me (she’s bulimic, makes jewelry, sings, loves art, is an artist, intense, emotional, even looks like me).

Ok, so school update- classes started the Wednesday before last and I’m already behind- no surprise there. Lol, I’m actually in the library right now. No joke. My single is like NOT conducive to work at all! I’m in one of the 3rd floor cubicles. You know I’m a 3rd floor girl Clarisse! :) So it seems to even write blog posts, I have to go to the library. :) I’m going to try to catch up on some reading from this week though, b/c I really need to whip my GPA back into shape after last semester.

Ok, this is officially really long, so I’m going to go now- please feel free to respond on here or facebook or email- I want life updates! I miss you both so much!!!! And I love that I can kinda share this part of my life with ya’ll too. :)

To everyone else- Don’t worry, the bitch is back :). Meaning, my much needed hiatus is over and you will be hearing from me much more in the near future. I promise.

Xoxo
Princess Kelley