Sunday, January 25, 2009

A New Direction

Hey Ya'll,
So I'm sorry that I've been away for so long. I've been really sick this past week- I was in the hospital 3 times in 3 days. It was highly unpleasant I can assure you. And unfortunately there has also been a lot of relationship drama going on of late, and that has taken up the majority of my other time. But I love John and I sometimes there is drama in relationships. I've mentioned him before, but I haven't had time to go into much detail yet unfortunately. So here's the reader's digest version: (If you just want to skip to the important part go to the ****)

So I started my spanking journey with Daddy, and I've been seeing him for about 9 months. Then in October, I started seeing M, and that's a story in and of itself. But I was still with Daddy, as I've always been. Then in December, as a response to my fighting with M, I met John, and then the runaway happened- I talked about that before. So for a while there I was seeing all three, with Daddy still as the number one in my life- the final say. But over break John and I became really close and somehow (despite my attempts to stop it) fell in love. And since I came back to school he and I have been seeing each other a lot. And while I've stayed with Daddy this whole time and can still not imagine my life without him in it (which I know will never have to happen- Daddy will always be here for me when I need him), John and my relationship has become very serious.....oh, and M and I are no longer together- we're just friends.

Now, the complicated part comes in in that John has been seeing other people (as he has been his whole life)....I'm pretty positive that I can't explain this in a manner that would do the situation justice, so I don't think I'm going to try. Let's just say that I don't want him seeing anyone else (though I can deal with him having a relationship like the one I have with Daddy with another girl) and he sure as hell doesn't like me seeing Daddy but he knows I'm not ready to move on past that. We've both gotten jealous and posessive, and some things have happened that have been particularly hard for me.

After a week of fighting, and lots of crying on my part, we seem to have finally come up with a compromise. And here is the entire reason for me writing this long ass post that I'm sure none of you care about. ************* John doesn't like me having nude/semi-nude/revealing/sexual pictures of myself on the internet. And in order to come up with a compromise, their removal is what he has asked of me. I've been having a hard time with this ruling as I'm sure you can imagine. I love this blog. It has become a wonderful escape for me, and I've met some great people here. Plus, I'm not going to lie, I love the attention. So it's very difficult for me to just give up a part of something that means a lot to me. And my best friend has also spent a lot of time working on this with me, and I know that she'll be dissapointed, as am I. But I can't go through anymore fighting. I'm just not in a stable enough emotional place for that right now. I need resolution. I need him. I need him to love me and for me to be enough.

So as of 15 minutes from now, all of the photos of me will be gone from this site. I realize that this means that I will lose most of my "readers" and that makes me sad, but I know how this kind of thing works. So I'll keep the blog itself going and see if there is anyone out there still interested, and I promise to try my best to keep it interesting (though I'm not sure it will even hold the same interest for me). I really have had a great time these last few months, and I hope that it can keep going, and that someone will want to stick around. I do have a lot of spankings to tell about. I went a week without any, and my brat went on a rampage!.....

but yeah, so that's my story, I have to start removing pics before rehearsal. Here you go, John. This is how much I love you.


xoxo
Princess Kelly

8 comments:

  1. Hey Kelly,
    We have exchanged a couple emails elsewhere, and hoping to talk to you more still. But, attention parts aside, you don't really want the set that is only interested in you for those pictures.

    I know it is disappointing for you, but it is one of those decision things that we all have to make sometimes.

    Hope you are feeling better.

    Matt

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  2. Hey Kelly,

    Matt is correct. If the photos are the only reason someone comes to your blog then you don't really need them coming!

    I'll keep checking in as long as you promise to keep sharing your spankings with us!

    Hugs,
    Dave

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  3. Hi Kelly,

    While I enjoyed the pictures of you a lot, you can keep your blog interesting by continuing to write like you've been writing. I'll certainly keep reading.

    For a blog of this personal nature, there are some issues to consider in posting pics of yourself. I'm not in any position to have an opinion about it, but your boyfriend is, and I think you're right to go along with his wishes on this. The most important thing is to do whatever makes your life the best it can be, and I hope some part of it is to continue posting here.

    Big Hugs,
    Eric

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  4. Kelly,

    You're as beautiful in prose as you are in the flesh. Post whatever you feel comfortable sharing and we'll be here.

    Hugs,
    Bonnie

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  5. Matt- hey there. :) Thank you for your comment, and I'm glad you stopped by. And you are right. I should think of this as a process by which to discover who is interested in what, and I'm finding that I am surprised by how many people are still interested in hearing about me and my stories. Sure the attention for my photos was nice, but having people pay attention for more than that is great. And yes, I'm feeling much better, thank you :)

    Dave- :) Thank you so much for your kind words. You have always been so supportive and I can't tell you how much that means to me. And I'll do better than promise. I'll pinkie swear that I will keep writing. It's too much fun not to :).

    Eric- Thank you so much for commenting. It means a lot that people like you will keep reading. You're right, posting pictures in the first place was a big decision. I wasn't ever planning to post many really. I (as always) just got swept up in the moment, and I'll probably look back and thank my bf for making me take them down. But I promise that i will keep posting, and I hope you'll keep reading :).

    Bonnie- Thank you so much. That was very well said. I'll just have to make sure I use spell check a bit more since there won't be as many shiny objects to distract people. Your comment really made me smile today, and I needed a smile :).

    xoxo
    Princess Kelly

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  6. I'll come back despite the "no pictures" policy. I love this blog and I love the way you're honest about your "daddy needs." Remember that their really is a buttocks, brain, and heart connection. Corner time and sore, bare bottoms are the way to make that connection real.

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  7. Anonymous- I'm glad to hear that you'll be sticking with me, and thank you so much for the compliment. I do try to be as honest as I can about what I want and need b/c if i'm not honest about it, no one can give it to me :). And I completely agree about that connection! Hopefully for me it will be enforced again very soon.

    xoxo
    Princess Kelly

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  8. Hi Kelly,
    I won't deny it, I loved looking at the pictures of you, your panties, your spanked bum, etc. But that certainly isn't the only reason I came here and will keep coming here. You write really interesting posts and from that, I can fill in the "blanks" so to speak.

    I respect your decision to remove your pictures. I will continue to visit and link to you as well.

    Keep up the good work!

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