Hey Team,
I am so sorry that the first time I post something in a long time it is about something that is not exactly happy. I was actually writing a different post last night, but then I stumbled across these articles, and just... wow. I felt it was my duty to share this with y'all.
Please be warned the video clip that all of this is referring to is VERY disturbing. It is NOT erotic in ANY way, and I was crying 30 seconds in. But I think this is important, and its a discussion that should be had.
These are some of the articles I've been reading, and the initial video and my response.
Original video posted by the now 23 year old daughter of FAMILY COURT Judge William Adams of her as a 16 year old, being brutally beaten and whipped and verbally abused
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wl9y3SIPt7o
First article I read detailing the three horrific deaths linked to a TN pastor's book that outlines abusive corporal punishment:
http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/pastor-corporal-punishment-advice-scrutinized-child-deaths-160004793.html
The article with the ridiculous quote saying that "just" welts and bruises on a 16 year old girl isn't abuse
http://news.yahoo.com/texas-judge-whipped-daughter-spanking-child-abuse-163900869.html
Article detailing how Judge Williams will not face criminal prosecution because of a statute of limitations (a statute that was initially created to protect people because of lack of memory! We don't need anyone's memory for God's sake! There's a fucking video!!! I hope this is pursued and a new precedent set)
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/11/03/judge-william-adams-video-beating-daughter_n_1075284.html
I just realized this and it made me so sick inside. If this girl had been 18 or 20 or 25 when this happened (and it probably did until she left the house) he could be prosecuted for assault and battery. If she was a stranger to him, but had "wronged" him in some way we would call it assault. AS WE SHOULD (you have to watch the video- not just clips- I'm so pissed by people who watch the first 30 seconds and say its fine... it goes on and on). But BECAUSE she is a child, we let him beat her! It should be the opposite! She is a child!! It is our job to PROTECT her! It is our duty to protect our children and those who can't protect themselves. He was so much bigger and stronger than her, and she is helpless and beaten, and we can do nothing BECAUSE she was a child, and therefore he has the "right" to beat her.
And then I go and read the comments posted on blogs and articles and the video itself and I'm just even more disturbed. So many people saying she deserved it, or if she had just taken it it would have been fine. Watch the whole thing. I doubt anyone could stomach it.
My Response:
xoxo
Princess Kelley
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existentialism and my life in the scene
Hey team
So I am house sitting slash babysitting right now and Im having trouble sleeping though Im exhausted. I've been thinking a lot the past couple of nights about my blog and about the scene and videos and that aspect and my life- how it all fits in.
And Im not sure it does.
Nothing has happened. No major crisis or emotional upheaval. I was started back on birth control this month after a month off bc of migraines and I think its making me more emotional and stressed in general. But Im still in what i would consider a very very good place. Also lonely this weekend away from my kitten and my house and my nana and papa and Paul is out of town, but Im not sure that's it either.
Oh, and someone is cyber attacking my business which upset me a lot on Thursday. But again, not really huge.
I think Im just questioning if this makes me happy. I am finding myself so happy in other aspects of my life, and the void this used to fill no longer needs filling, quite often. Whatever that void was.
I love the people here for the most part, though I've been more distant this part year, so its not that anything is making me unhappy.
Its a bit like this is all something I just fell into. I've always been obsessed with spanking and Im certainly an attention whore ;-) but this whole blog thing was a complete accident. I think i sometimes forget that I still had a spanking life before my blog. Certainly it would have been very different and I know i wouldn't have gotten to meet so many of the people that I've met without it. So I am not saying i regret it at all. More like that perhaps it has run its course?
There are times when I wish i could just go back to being that normal spanko girl on SIN trying to find a date, and wondering if i should send a guy a picture. And lets be honest, there are more than a few days when I just want out of the scene in general with all its bull shit and drama. I signed up for spanking. Not that nonsense.
But at the same time i know myself, and I know how much I have loved the attention, the sounding board, the support, and often the pulpit. And do i want to give that up? And for what?
What is it that doesn't feel right?
I just burned a bunch of DVDs and am talking with people about a members site... Am i pushing so much farther bc something seems off and Im trying to fix it? And if so, is farther in the way to go?
Now that Im writing this out on my phone, Im remembering one of the amazing things about this place.
My place.
I think its the videos and the business that is making me unhappy. I never wanted that. I just wanted to share and have fun.
Maybe I don't need to cut away completely. Maybe I just need to get back to basics.
Im not really sure what Im feeling. I mean honestly Im not really feeling anything negative or positive about this- it feels very back burner. But something in my gut is telling me to make a change.
And like I tell all of my students- always go with your gut.
Thoughts? Advice?
The idea of back to basics and no more business and videos is actually making me feel calm... Now the question is can my competitive, attention seeking side live without it? My competitive side btw is not a very healthy part of me.
I could really use feedback on this one y'all. Love you
Xoxo
Princess Kelley
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