I'm so sorry that I haven't posted in almost a week! I didn't realize it'd been so long. Next time that happens someone just threaten to spank me and I'll pay attention ;). Promise.
So, I've been meaning to write this for a few days now, and I'm glad I'm finally getting it done. I'm so sorry that it took me so long to respond to people's comments- I really do love getting them, and whenever I get an email saying i have one I get so excited, lol, its really sad. Anywho, I've responded in the comments below, and I'm responding to a couple here.
Bonnie, Jean Marie, and a few other private emailers have asked me if I'd ever consider being a spanking model, and I thought that since I'd been asked so much (which has been so incredibly flattering) that I'd just responded to everyone here.
Honestly, I really wish that I could give a definitive answer to the question, but its a bit more complicated than just a yes or a no. Have I ever thought about it or wanted to? HELLS YES. I mean, I used to dream about stuff like this, and for sure I've fantasized about it a lot in the last few years. Like Bonnie said, I love spanking, and love a lot of these sites/people and want to get involved, clearly I love the attention and I mean, who wouldn't want to get paid to do what they love? I know I certainly would love it.
Another part of it I think might actually be that I just want the attention, and more specifically that I just want people to be able to think I could be a spanking model. I always joke with my friends that I wanted to be a stripper when I was younger, but really what I wanted was to be pretty enough to be a stripper. I wanted people to think I was beautiful- something I have never thought myself to be- to the point that they would pay to see me undressed. I know that seems kinda twisted and wrong, but its just who I am. I'm very insecure, and I've had body image issues for a long time, and all of this--- its just been such a change in my life. I mean, I for sure question whether or not I'd be sucessful as a spanking model- I mean I'm quite a bit heavier than almost anyone in the scene- but I honestly am so flattered that people think I would be good at it. Granted, in the aspect of I can sorta act, I love attention, I'm moderately photogenic, and I can take, and LOVE a good hard spanking- I'd make a great spanking model, lol. But I....this train of thought is starting to make no sense so I'm going to start an new paragraph. lol
Pretty much, I really really really would LOVE to be a spanking model. Its been something I've been fantasizing about for years. And I worry that as I get older, and the opportunity passes me by (I mean I am turing 20 in about a week!) I'll regret that this was something that I wanted, and possibly could have had and just didn't go after when I had the chance. But at the same time I worry that if I do do this, I could end up regretting that for the rest of my life.
I'm terrified for people to know. For it to get out. For it to hurt my family or my future. I mean, I would have to leave my school if it got out on facebook or something like that. And I could never be in politics or anything in the spotlight (not that that is necessarily something I'm looking to do). I mean, the privacy thing is the same part of like why I took pictures with my face off of this site. If I modeled, my face would be everywhere. And part of me wants that! I want to put pictures with my face up on this site. I don't want to be afraid. I want to be able to do all of this, but I'm so worried that it could hurt me or my family.
So in the end, I'm stuck. I don't know what to do. Most people that I'm close to tell me not to, that its not worth the risk. But I just don't know. If anyone has any advice or words of wisdom or personal stories to share, I'm so open to them, and grateful for them.
I want to live my life so that I have no regrets. I don't want to look back and wish I'd done something. And I know that if I don't do this, that's how I feel. But I also
know I could end up regretting doing it as well.Ok, so that's the long answer. lol. Sorry. Just wanted to put it out there. I'm going to write another post tomorrow morning, and hmmm.... I think I'm going to put the topic to a vote. The winner will be written. (now i'm just silently praying that someone comments before tomorrow morning so that I don't look like a complete fool.)
Hm...the choices are
- The Day Of Reckoning (the story of my worst spanking ever),
- Daddy Little Girl (just a Daddy/little girl story/musings that Daddy and I hope to act out)
- My thoughts on roleplay/costumes,
- My thoughts and Theories on Exposure
- How Medieval and Renessaince Faire people and the S&M scene oddly interact
All of these will be written evenutally- one hopes, lol. And also, these are the only things left on the docket ya'll, so more suggestions are highly encouraged!!!!
Love you guys!
xoxo
Princess Kelly
I say go for it but I'm a guy who loves your tushy and your blogs are awesome so I'm biased, lol! as far as next topic I say #3 Roleplay, I'd love to know your thoughts about it!
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ultimately ya gotta see if the pros outweigh the cons, its tough with family involved, but ya also don't wanna regret not doing it if you really love it! nobody can make this decision for ya sweetie, good luck! I'd love to see ya with Sinn Sage if ya do ever become a spanking model, that would be amazing! 2 great tushies, erotic spanking, yummy, lol!
ReplyDeletecorey
Hey Kelly,
ReplyDeleteMy advise is to protect your future. I understand your desire to be a spanking model, but the evidence is going to be PERMANENT. You probably could get 90% of the experience at a spanking party without the risk of it coming back to haunt you.
I vote for Daddy's Little Girl first, and your worst spanking ever number 2.
Hugs,
Dave
http://histospankhistolove.blogspot.com
Hey Kelly!
ReplyDeleteAgain great post, you do a great job of putting your true feelings down on your blog :) You would make a great spanking model, you have the "look" the charactor and the wonderfully spankable bottom and I would bet you would be very successful at anything you do! But, I have to agree with Dave, My advise would be to protect your future. You can live out nearly any fantasy you want in the way you are doing now or with your Daddy... Great post! Oh, and I vote for #3 as well, Roleplay....followed closely by #2 and the Daddy's little girl theme.
Jon
Wow, Kelly, I see you've been busy here. I've got a lot to catch up on.
ReplyDeleteFWIW, I don't doubt you could be a spanking model if you wanted to be one. I've certainly enjoyed your pics here, and the fact you're a genuine spanking enthusiast makes you truly qualified in my book. And that you really want to be at the center of that attention is even better. You ARE a beautiful girl, and it's always a bit sad that beautiful girls so often don't see themselves as others see them. Yes, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Hopefully you always have someone important in your life who appreciates you. It sounds like you want more than that - to show your beauty to a broader public - and I don't see anything potentially bad about that other than you shouldn't need it to feel beautiful, and you have to be strong enough to take criticism. I'm not in the business, but I'm aware that every beautiful model is not perfect for every viewer. If you're confident enough to pursue what you want, though, you'll find you have a lot of enthusiastic fans.
I guess that sounds like my advice for you is to be a spanking model, but I wouldn't presume to know what's right for you. You know your desires, needs, ambitions, and the circumstances of your life far better than I can. It's really about weighing all those things. How bad do you want something, and what risks are you willing to take to have it? There are many very smart women in the spanking model business, so if you have questions about the risks, you might be able to get some answers.
Perhaps related, maybe not, I'm interested in your Thoughts and Theories on Exposure. All topics welcomed, however.
Hugs,
Eric
I like a post on theories on exposure - exposure is my favorite part of spankings, and it's too often brushed off by people who aren't into the embarrassment aspect of things.
ReplyDeleteI vote for your worst spanking ever account followed closely by your thoughts on Daddy/lilgirl.
ReplyDeleteRegarding you being a model, its a very tough decision and I can understand your dilemma. It is a very personal decision but my thoughts are that you have some things going for you that would make you successful in the business like your passion for spanking, your sincerity and your beautiful womanly figure. All of that needs to be balanced though with the loss of anonymity and the risk of someone finding out you dont want to find out. I think you should try and talk to some other spanking models and hear about their experiences. I am sure that will give you some great insights on what its really like to be a spanking model.
Spankophile
Hi Kelly,
ReplyDeleteYou are such a wonderful girl with a huge heart. Yes you would make a fantastic model, however i hear it is a tough buisness. So stay as you are, and never change your beautiful inner self.
Thanks, Guiseppi
I just wanted to say that there's a big diffrence between being a porn star and a spanking model.
ReplyDeleteI don't your family would take it near as hard to accept you being a spanking model as they would you being a porn star. And secondly, I do not mean to be rude or anything, but you posting this blog is 85% of the exposure that you would have if you were a spanking model. So it seems you are already mostly there, and I'd say go for it. I believe your future will be fine.
Think about it.
Corey-
ReplyDeleteThank you for your thoughts and comments. I really appreciate all the imput I can get. And, lol, I will keep her in mind if i ever do get into the scene. :)
Dave-
Thanks for your honest opinion. You know it means a lot to me. And I guess i never thought how much parties could fulfill my desires- but you're totally right I think. And yeah, the permanent-ness is really scary. Thanks for the advice. :)
Jon-
Thanks sweetie. :) We talked about this more, so I don't need to say much here, but thanks for all of your support and for listenign to me be crazy ;)
Eric-
Glad to have you back :). I've missed you around here. And wow! THANK you for your such extensive advice! And thank you for the compliments. I know in some ways that I'm beautiful.....but I've always had body image issues, and so, you're probably right. Going into an industry based entirely on my looks would be a very scary thing. And I wish I was with someone who appreciated me too....
I hope to hear from you again! :)
Spankophile-
Hey there sweetie :). Thank you for commenting and for your advice. You're right- those are all things that i need to keep in mind. I hope that we can chat again soon! And I hope to see you here again too! :)
Anonymous-
Thank you for your blunt honesty. I actually appreciate it quite a bit. And don't worry, I don't think you're rude- just direct. I understand the difference.
You're right, there certainly is a difference btw being a porn star and a spanking model, that's for sure. I guess for me I just always saw things like sex and more mainstream kinks as more acceptable. It would suck to be caught having sex on tape, but that's not really out of the ordinary. Everyone has sex, you know? But it is a good point none the less.
And, lol, yes this blog is a lot of the same exposure. Its really about showing my face though, and in part about having control over the material. Granted anyone could take the material from here, but its still mine to shut down. But again, your points are well made, and well taken, and I'm still considering all of my options :). Thanks for commenting! :) Hope you're enjoying the site.
xoxo
Princess Kelly
Oh Spank, you silly girl!
ReplyDelete'Moderately' photogenic?! You goof, my Husband and I both love your pics,and I say that as a bi woman.
So, while I can understand privacy concerns, never doubt that you would have a Huge fan base, Princess dear.
Angie
My gosh you have a shapely bottom!
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